Friday, January 27, 2006 @ 10:48 AM
YAYy!!!!
helo0 ... everybody.. CHINESE NEW YEAR COMING!!!! co0l.. got Hong Bao agin.. haha and those yummy goodies & fo0d... hehex.. saliver dro0ling down from my mouth.. okie i guess every chinese people out there also waiting for this dae... hm.. well.. tml i will become babysitter.. co0l nv babysit before.. but maybe not aniway.. hm.. i can't wait for reunion dinner and the three days event in my house.. gonna be very crowded ..okie.. i shall write about CNY till here.. hahaha hm... one thing shock me.. that my catethcism teacher elder vincent.. he passed away.. well at least he is now in GODS hand... and i believe will see each other in heaven again... he is really a very go0d uncle.. real go0d.. but due to his long term leave we dun knoe about he whereabout... haIx... nvm.. wished his family would go on smoothly...
haIx... school.. argh... nvm.. is always a sad thing being in school... no one will understand wad am i going through man... haix.... wadeva izzit.. i just live as it is... haix.. now N'lvl is my piorities.. thats all.. i dun wan to create myself with animore problem... but i oso dunno what the hell happening to mii... well.. i think i will change after new year... one thing i really learn in school... which is never trust people so easily.. people are all faking up themselves.. acting innocent and all... wadeva kind of faces ... all are their cunning acts of kindess... some not la.. but most of them is what i've just described... hypocritical ... haix.. what can i do .. somtimes people look down on u...lyk mii.. always being critisize wan ba? who knoes.. lyk mii... loner... who knoes man... but i dun really give it a damn to those people who have a big group of friends which sometimes i felt its so troublesome...whatever trend or fashion they will tnd to followand what u need to spend a big bomb on the things which are useless that can only last for awhile.. esp wad.. u will haf more childish acts.. more gossipings etc.. i think if u are alone at least that will not happen... i've gone through enough...esp when u r po0r.. save it.. and u dun haf a pretty face.. haha save the time to imitate them... u will get the pinch once u try that... mii... i learn my lesson... friends who that to u.. are not true friends but friends that u think they are loyal.. will stabbed u one dae with a knife without u knowing that u are being stabbed... mii 1 or 2 friends is enough.... only true friens understand u.. importantly they don't care whats ur statues and popularity and ur personalities also willing to study and not be a fools flirting and bitching aroun... which i dun gif it a damn too.. popular?SO WHAT... big deal meh??? pretty? so SO WHAT is u heart good and fit to be called pretty..? well its always the surface that people is looking.. what about the inner part of it... haix... rather disappointing... that the generation is gradually changing alot of things and people mindset has gone haywire.. well can't blame la... it's the world that what satan has produce to lure ppl to love the worldly things... what to do... but GOD will come one dae.. SATAN WILL BE DESTROY... YAYY!!! i will be more than happy
well this post is rather long coz my view of certain things has expand my knowledge of this worldly matter that affects all our future... me i live for god.. and not live for the world... things dun go my way though.. but however.. determination is important to keep mii going...things have made mii blind in some ways or another but i wan to make it visible to let mii understand it.. i knoe i may not be the best to many people.. i may seems irritating.. i may seems unlovable.. i may seems stern.. i may seems to be not good in making peole happy... i may seems to stop my friends from stepping into things that will goes wrong in time or another..i may seems cruel in speech.. i may seems anything that a friend of mine would have think of mii that way...but... i really do not want them to regret things after my advice was given... what i do.. is to help them.. but they wun knoe aniway.. well... just let it be now.. i'll try to stop being a good soul in disgused now bah.. i will be very striaghtforward.. although in reality i mone.. but this time is more straight forward than ever... get it right.. JASMINE DOSEN'T LIKE TO BE USED .. I'VE HAF ENOUGH!!! u wanna mess around wif mii.. well i wun deal with u .. but my GOD will...
sry.. this post was mean to let out y feelings.. i was rather tired about this matter... haix.. if anyone could just ever understand mii... thats all i ask for.. but well.. i'll try to be quiet from now on.. bah.. talk less problem less.. i knoe it will not be the actual mii anymore.. but... who cares.. not gaining attention.. not thinking of anything lyk that.. but how can i not be lyk that... its hard to face this kind of people who doesn't appreciate mii...and its hard to survive with people who hate mii..i knoe myelf... btw.. anything come.. i wun be the first wan to be thought of or whatever things.. i will be the last bah...or maybe not even a chance... but whatever izzit... let it be.. people may regrt knowing mii.. people may not trust mii... people may think alot of bad things of mii.. but welll let them thing lor... i cant stop them from thinking what... well.. i will be mii.. but in a different way from now...
thanks for viewing this long winded post of mine .. i'm done expressing all out.. feeling rather peace at mind now... im not bearing grudges towards the things i've said to people who did this to mii.. and let mii to be wad i m still todae.. "Loner".. but i really thank them for moulding mii into a better understanding person who looks things in a different view now... and let mii really open my eyes to see this earth.. the lusts of the world... well... i thank god im not one of them.. im just content with what i m now.. so i wanna sae"THANK YOU TO MY PAST"... from now on... its gonna be a different story of jasmine.. walking out of darkness...walking into the lighted path.. okie i will stop here.. go0dbyE!!! :)have a nice rest and wish everybody "HAPPY NEW YEAR"