Tuesday, February 09, 2010 @ 9:45 PM
Not needed and Thrown aside.
Near but far..
Chinese New Year is just 3 days away.
Tml commence my Night shift Weds & Thurs.
After which I will have my 5 days off. :)
Well... this ward that I'm in now is like of the feeling in 63; weird.
Teacher came back after 2 weeks needing to clear all the nonsense. :/
Now my spirit kind of dampened because her lively spirit changed.
The fear of uncertainty creeps into my heart each time I see her face now.
But I will entrust it to the Lord for His will to be done.
From young,
Trust was something I hate.
Because it seems like a threat, an identity, very enclose and intimidating.
Almost like a verdict. It seems like it.
It's a broken end once you break it.
But it's human.
There is certainly an anxious heart.
I applied for poly already.
Whether anot I can enter into poly will be another question after seeing my posting results.
I'm in the crossroad once again.
Pre Grad blues. :/
I really hope that Ms Lang will not give up hope on us.
I just don't want to be useless or a disappointment again. :/
But well, I still rmb the encouragment tt I received when I collect my Olvl results in 2007.
It's a long time, but it etched deeply in my heart.
Plus importantly, what God has instructed me about not being worry about tommorow.
I'm at peace.
God was always with me throughout this course.
Thick and thin, He was there.
His blessings are unreadable.
I really hope that this coming few weeks will be a smooth one for me.
Gosh, I really don't wish to get into any more uneccessary trouble.
Please Lord!
I want to treasure the time.
It comes like a season and gone with the wind.