Thursday, June 17, 2010 @ 8:27 PM
Someday she wishes to be gone with the wind.
About 1 mth ago, I left my previous job.
I'm prettie relieved & i've been gaining again :/
I find that even as I grow older..
The more I find myself missing the old times like being carefree.
As age catches up,
I find myself chasing & desiring after things which might not bring me any good.
And people starts to look at you in another angle and are demanding more from you..
even ur love ones. Somehow.. they will start choosing whether you are worth in anyways.
Are you choosing? :(
Haa.. interesting is that when I attended a meeting at my workplace.
This person actually presented the definition of pressure as the starting of his presentation.
And for the min, everybody seemed to be more interested in that meeting.
What's ur definition of pressure?
I do not dare to pin in too much hope that I will be able to stay in this job for long.
Although it seems promising for me to stay till my contract ends.
I kinda enjoy this boring job.
Somehow .. I love the fact that I do not have to entertain anyone.
I thank God for very nice colleagues & supervisor! :)
I'm not changing my mindset of not becoming a nurse also.
Next year.. I will be applying to work in the hospital. God willing.
I guess.. in everyway.. I'm slow.
So well.. study wise.. I will take a even more slower pace.
When I heard of those of my friends who worked in the hospital,
it strucked my heart that I am no longer a student.
No more teacher to cover your doings.
Now you are faced with the real world.
I am not assurred that I'm going to have a good time there anyway,
Because I may get 3 times harder than my friends who were better than me.
But I'm really amused by the fact that nurse should be known as very gentle & caring.
Somehow...the fact contridicted with humans are all differently made and what they think.
I guess, I yearn to be more humble even as I climb the stairs in my nursing career. God willing.
Somehow I dont really know where is my bearings yet.
Thank God for tha opportunity to be able to attend Church Camp.
But I didn't get the most out of it because I was super sick.
Was down with very infectious cough & flu.
Everybody was tired out by the Jubilee .. I guessed.
I didn't really got to rest properly.
Because my sleep everyday were interrupted by my threatening throat.
But I still enjoyed.. Sorry if I unknowingly cause anybody to be sick in the camp.
I tried to contain my coughing & sneezing.. that's y not many ppl tht I was sick.
Now that I'm alright.. My appitite comes back. :D I ate durian that my mum bought today.
During camp, I didnt enjoy the food because there wasnt any taste. Everything taste the same.
I was craving for spicy food but I just cant touch it. Haa.. But I was glad to overcome the smell of lamb. Now I love lamb chop HAA. I got to eat alot during the BBQ nite. :D Tt was the only enjoyable food.
I was touched by the many friends & aunties who has helped me to get medicine and cooling stuff to eat during the Jubilee.
They were super nice! :) At least they bothered & concerned. Even though they were also going to be one of the flu & cough victim.
Finally.. Jubilee is over!!! :) I think I want to take a rest.
I Need to concentrate on other things more impt first.
Ahhh.... Now I'm working office hours from Mon- Sat.
I'm pretty happie :) But I got less time for myself & for others :(
So much things that I want to do.
Alrights Byyesss...
No trace of feelings left behind.. no turning back.