jasmiinnee'

2011-04-09T10:20:00.003+08:00

Blogging mood is back..:)

It's been 2 months alreadys huh..
How fast..

Alrites..
There are just a few things up in my life rite now.

-work
-Losing weight
-Outreaching

Work :)
What do you think.. it's really Great!
I always thank God for granting me a Great workplace.
Lovely colleagues.. More than I ever wish for.
Well.. God willing.. permanent here I come..
For now I guess..

Losing weight..
Ask me how.. haa of coz still persevering la!!
Thank God after CNY till now, I lost abt 7kg.
Hmm.. still got 13kg to go man!
Not very significant,
But at least i'm glad with the progress.
At least now I get to wear things more comfortably..
By end April I hope to lose another 3-4kg.
Make it 10kg.. before all the buffet treats will be coming in my way.
Scarry.. but thank God i find it easy to resist and control now.

OH YES!!! SO looking forward for the 3 month planned program coming up with
Pat & Jin Li :D haa..! WHEEEEeeeeee!!!! <3
Our 21st will be a special one! :D
No party, no glam.
Just a simple one :D
With all my close dears!<3

Outreaching..
Thank God for the many opportunities He has given to me.
Be it in workplace,meeting friends or family.
Pray for God to work.
I'm seriously lagging, or u could say I am quite stagnant.
But I thank God because of all this opportunities,
I realised that God is working and is always reminding me that He is there.

God hath not promised sky always blue..:)

Arghhhh... so HAPPY!!!
Church Camp is coming soon!!!
PENANG HERE I COME!!! :D
Thank God Jaime & Rachel is coming tis year.
That makes the 3 of us in Camp tgt this year!
WHEEEEEeeeeee!!!!
Like finally!<3

Celebrated Ethan's full month and Giselle's 1 yr old :)
Declan also celebrated his 3rd bithday! :)
He becoming a shy lit'boy Haaa!
Ethan is my Sis 2nd boy :) Really Adorable.
Big bright eyes with double eyelids ;)
He looks just like Declan but Declan is single eyelid :)
All 3 of them really brought our family lots of joy! :)
Just reminds me of me and my cousins...
We are only a year different. :)
Declan (3 Yrs old ),
Kaylee (2 yrs old),
Giselle (1 yrs old)
and now
Ethan (14months) :)
Next year, might be another additional gd news from my bro side! ;)
Really love all of them!!! :D

*faints.. now now..married is still so far away for me..'grins'

Alrites.. there will be couple things happening and I want to do.

AHHHHH... discipline and more discipline!!!

Alritesss... Goose Bye! :)

GOD is ALWAYS GREAT.. :)

2011-01-31T13:35:00.004+08:00

My 240 post.

How fast..
January will be ending today.
Tomorrow will be February already!

Reviewing the month of January..

It's prettie much the same as in for work.
Less load for now. :)

Well.. certain things did of coz change..

1) My hairstyle :P
I can never come to an agreement to why i did something that would contridict myself.
Probably I was too stress and wanted to do something that I never tried before. Or maybe coz it's for some reason that i decided to.
But it's of coz not something bad.. I don't think I will ever go crazy again.

2) My diet plan!!!
Well.. I'm really really happie that I could sustain a month of jogging.
Been jooging 3 times a week. It's really a struggle sometimes to just give up and go back to my normal self. But i don't want. Being a little more motivated when I could wear my old dresses was really an accomplisment so far. I hope I don't get lazy and forget what i set out to do. I don't wan my resolutions to only last for less than 6 mths! GO GO Jasmine!!!

Of coz Jogging sometimes really help me to de-stress. Now instead of turning to eat so much when I'm stress.. I choose to run. Even if I don't have anyone to run with me. This year is definitely a year of changes. I go to love jogging; I love jogging :)

Spiritual part..
Been good.. Not that Great. It's just like jogging.. u need determination and a love for it. But thank God for not forsaking me.. although sometimes temptation is lingering.

3)Chinese New Year
2011 is finally come. The real 2011.
I pray that this year will be a better year ahead.
I am looking forward for whatever that I've been wanting to do this year.
Well.. still got some incompleted stuff from 2010 that needs to be settled.
Will settle after chinese new year!

4)I'm still missing somethings in my life.
I guess it will remain as it is.
I must learn to let go and accept things with a open heart.
Sometimes this matter really makes me go nuts literally.
But I know I cannot do anything and I can only keep my calm.
I don't want to understand because it just goes in circles.

Nothing beats holiday.. finally I can rest.
It's been a tiring January but a fruitful want.

BLESSED CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE.. :)
GOD BLESS!!!

2011-01-11T10:44:00.003+08:00

The beginning of my 2011.

Yayness..
It never could have never been better..
-I have started my diet plan. (I need to remind myself to diet the right way)
-I have started exercising with friends who are just like me motivated to keep fit.
(Thank God I still have my stamina in place but I just need to watch my knee and not spraining my muscles.)
- I have been regular in my Quiet time and spending my time wisely travelling by reading the bible using my hp and also reading a book called "Having a Mary heart in a Martha World"
-I am finally out of YF and being the faithful secretary.
(Meaning now I'm moving up to YAF.)
-Taking less duties.. I realise I need a rest. I'm physically tired and spiritually dry just by taking too much activities. I'm not giving my 100% anymore, that's bad isnt it.

I just need a change this yr..

2010-12-20T11:17:00.002+08:00

What is 2011 without 2010 growth and pains!

Thank God for seeing me through a year with lots of topsy turvy and little roses..

This will be memories of yesterday and kicking myself forward with new sets of challenge coming 2011.

I have so many wish list..I think I will be broke if I had to fufill each of them.

But a few impt items that I need to get and dying for it to come true soon!
Like a new HANDPHONE!!!! Argggghhhhhhhh~!!!
My current handphone is really giving me lots of manual work (irritating)..
Cant type a message as fast as last time.Sick!

Thank God for work! :)
Well.. it's not that boring after all..
People makes the difference definitely!
I think I found my confidence doing the constructioning well.
But well 2011.. Will take into another heights!

There are a few of the MUST accomplish!
- You know what. Lose W_____. like I said a million times.
- Focus my thoughts on spiritual things (QT QT QT).
- Complete reading Children's Application Bible.
- Clear things..
- Save up and be more thrifty
- Do more OT OT OT coz can earn extra income!!

Looks like I'm just trying to set my resolutions already.
But you know there is a saying..
Resolutions dont usually last. :P

Next Year.. there will be a new set of commitments for me to go through.
But I've kind of let go alot of it already.
No more minutes next year! :D Hee
Ahhh.. well one step at a time.

I'm entering my young adulthood next year.
After much consideration.. I guess my heart is more settled about certain things.
Looking ahead for fresh new beginning for 2011.

Another new heights for Jasmine Wee.

Let the rain wash away all the pains of yesterday!

2010-11-13T12:02:00.002+08:00

I've extended another 6 more mths! :)

I've done my nursing license too! Yayness..

November and December are coming!

It means camp :0) and spending more money..! ;/

2010-09-05T20:10:00.011+08:00

I hope I can paint my own reality.

3 months has passed! :)

Thank God for blessing me with such a GREAT working environment.
It's been sometime since I've blog.. as usual.
Thank God for the many opportunities to get to know each colleagues better.

Haa.. even someone joked with me:"SEE the company treat you so good!The road for you to come to the office so smooth, Know you need to walk to and fro the office so much that they hired people to come and make a pathway for you to walk instead of walking on the mud and grass." HAAA~!

I will cherish my time working in this company..
It's really precious..
Dont know whether I will get this kind of awesome environment ever again next time.
Plus I got SO much motivation to go to work everyday! :D
Grr.. I feel like extending my contract now ahhhhhh!

I'm doing something that I enjoy too! :D
Why must I only work as what I study only..

Indeed, I know my Lord cares! when one dont work, the other will. :)

My Little Naphew Declan really a sweetie!
I'm so touched that he misses me! :)
You know what..
He learns how to use Iphone all by himself.
Smartboy! He is only 2plus yrs old! Amazed!
A little kid could really brighten up ur day with those little things they do.

There's alot of things which kept me occupied recently..
I think it's fantastic!
At least I'm not bothered by the things which I assume it consumed most of my time.
Take it as it is. Problems will never go away.
So why bother..
Suppressing lots of my "Es" with "Bs"

I'm going to start some small handicraft stuff with my sisters! :D
Wonderful! I've been sewing already! :D I'm Loving It!

I dunno if I could ever find the determination to do the things which I've set to do.
But I will try harder! :]

Some thoughts:
Is there a definite answer for everything?
Meaning.. what if GOD think otherwise?
His thoughts are higher than ours isnt it?
We dont really have a standard answer to everything in life dont we?
Not even the bible will supply you with standard answers about God's will for you right? If not prayer does not need function for petitions.
Just like asking, What should u say for God to grant you something?
The bible don't give all question a model answer to what exact words you should say right? If not why is there YES,NO or WAIT to what we pray?

Another things is:
What if the weaker dont get the standard answer right, isnt it similar to judging and stumbling the weaker indirectly when you tell them it's wrong? Unless they really say without thinking.. but still it could be a possible answer to God right?
[Never mind if you dont get this part]

Since we are answerable to God our own and God knows our thoughts even way before we do, who are we to challenge Him and His thoughts?

Nowadays I feel that the weaker are often being condemned subtly with their weak knowledge and relationship in their walk with the Lord by ignorant people who think they know everything. Which I really do not like it. Doesnt mean you know everything in the bible means God has already confirm that you will enter into heaven right? Who knows?

Weaker brother also need proper encouragement that will build them up.
Why do we say we love the Lord, when we still act like those ignorants?

Christians live by the principles of the bible. But somehow sometimes some kind of misused it and misinterpreted it.We are humans that makes mistakes so easily.

Just like people is trying to say.. Smoking doesn't necessary harm you, some people smoke till they are 94 yrs old but they are still fit and strong!?!

There isnt a standard answer to everything in life. isn't it right.

Don't be quick to judge my faith now. It's just thoughts.
I'm not doubting anything. Dont assume anything alright.
I trust my sovereign Lord overall.
I remember man will fail but God will never.

I might not be what some would like me to be.
But I know I'm made special in God's eyes.
That's enough!

2010-06-17T20:27:00.005+08:00

Someday she wishes to be gone with the wind.

About 1 mth ago, I left my previous job.
I'm prettie relieved & i've been gaining again :/

I find that even as I grow older..
The more I find myself missing the old times like being carefree.
As age catches up,
I find myself chasing & desiring after things which might not bring me any good.
And people starts to look at you in another angle and are demanding more from you..
even ur love ones. Somehow.. they will start choosing whether you are worth in anyways.
Are you choosing? :(
Haa.. interesting is that when I attended a meeting at my workplace.
This person actually presented the definition of pressure as the starting of his presentation.
And for the min, everybody seemed to be more interested in that meeting.
What's ur definition of pressure?

I do not dare to pin in too much hope that I will be able to stay in this job for long.
Although it seems promising for me to stay till my contract ends.
I kinda enjoy this boring job.
Somehow .. I love the fact that I do not have to entertain anyone.
I thank God for very nice colleagues & supervisor! :)
I'm not changing my mindset of not becoming a nurse also.
Next year.. I will be applying to work in the hospital. God willing.
I guess.. in everyway.. I'm slow.
So well.. study wise.. I will take a even more slower pace.

When I heard of those of my friends who worked in the hospital,
it strucked my heart that I am no longer a student.
No more teacher to cover your doings.
Now you are faced with the real world.
I am not assurred that I'm going to have a good time there anyway,
Because I may get 3 times harder than my friends who were better than me.
But I'm really amused by the fact that nurse should be known as very gentle & caring.
Somehow...the fact contridicted with humans are all differently made and what they think.
I guess, I yearn to be more humble even as I climb the stairs in my nursing career. God willing.
Somehow I dont really know where is my bearings yet.

Thank God for tha opportunity to be able to attend Church Camp.
But I didn't get the most out of it because I was super sick.
Was down with very infectious cough & flu.
Everybody was tired out by the Jubilee .. I guessed.
I didn't really got to rest properly.
Because my sleep everyday were interrupted by my threatening throat.
But I still enjoyed.. Sorry if I unknowingly cause anybody to be sick in the camp.
I tried to contain my coughing & sneezing.. that's y not many ppl tht I was sick.
Now that I'm alright.. My appitite comes back. :D I ate durian that my mum bought today.
During camp, I didnt enjoy the food because there wasnt any taste. Everything taste the same.
I was craving for spicy food but I just cant touch it. Haa.. But I was glad to overcome the smell of lamb. Now I love lamb chop HAA. I got to eat alot during the BBQ nite. :D Tt was the only enjoyable food.

I was touched by the many friends & aunties who has helped me to get medicine and cooling stuff to eat during the Jubilee.
They were super nice! :) At least they bothered & concerned. Even though they were also going to be one of the flu & cough victim.

Finally.. Jubilee is over!!! :) I think I want to take a rest.
I Need to concentrate on other things more impt first.

Ahhh.... Now I'm working office hours from Mon- Sat.
I'm pretty happie :) But I got less time for myself & for others :(
So much things that I want to do.
Alrights Byyesss...

No trace of feelings left behind.. no turning back.

2010-05-21T13:56:00.003+08:00

It come not as a surprise..
I'm expecting it.

It's better tt I've lost that job.
I'm glad it's over.
I will move on.

So much for putting in the effort.
So much for wanting to open up.
So much for hoping..
Too much for them wanting to change me. It's not easy.

The real world is the ugliest. Yes it is. :)

Alrights.. now is to focus on things which will not perish.
Just for another mth excuse.. to take a small break from that awful experience.
Need a little revival and rejuvenation.

I will come back as a stronger girl. The next job I know it will be better.

Such things will only remind me to stay humble and that I need God.

only to be what He wants me to be...

2010-05-12T23:27:00.006+08:00

I am draining wasted energy being put into things which never meant to be.

Why do I always put myself in a situation which is unwanted.

Circles can never come to an end point.

I'm irritated because it's been years!

I'm tired from playing mind guessing game.

Can it be any easier? Work.
Is it effective? Dumb.

I am always the inadequate one.

2010-05-09T21:51:00.001+08:00

한 것입니다 항상 잘되고. 제가 하나 부족 해요.

2010-04-30T20:45:00.005+08:00

Working Life...

What to say???

It's 3times worst than my attachment.

It's drains me to the MAX.

我看到了人类邪恶的一面.

It's digusting.. but I'm force to fake a smile.

I got a problem..

It hinders me from progressing and it has humiliated me alot. :/

I'm really really sad.

I guess this is one thing that reminds me that I need to depend on God.

God really did had a purpose for me to meet different kind of difficult people recently.

I understood why and now it's still ongoing. I'm still meeting people like that.

But I thank God for some nice colleagues who has been patiently teaching me.

I thank God for the opportunity to learn things that I cant learn in the hospital.

Because all this skills will help and train me if I can enter into poly.

This world is not my home...

I need a time out..

我感到疲惫...

有时候感觉沮丧地继续下去。Really.

2010-04-19T21:21:00.002+08:00

我想回到过去. 약 년 전, 사고와 지금 난 아직도 그것에 단단히 이어지고.

It's been some time since I've blog :)
I'm glad to be working in a clinic now :D
God is Good.
Although I still cant get into poly..
I will not doubt what God has in mind for me.
Comforting myself? Not at all.

2010-03-18T15:35:00.001+08:00

2010-02-09T21:45:00.005+08:00

Not needed and Thrown aside.
Near but far..

Chinese New Year is just 3 days away.
Tml commence my Night shift Weds & Thurs.
After which I will have my 5 days off. :)

Well... this ward that I'm in now is like of the feeling in 63; weird.
Teacher came back after 2 weeks needing to clear all the nonsense. :/
Now my spirit kind of dampened because her lively spirit changed.
The fear of uncertainty creeps into my heart each time I see her face now.
But I will entrust it to the Lord for His will to be done.

From young,
Trust was something I hate.
Because it seems like a threat, an identity, very enclose and intimidating.
Almost like a verdict. It seems like it.
It's a broken end once you break it.
But it's human.

There is certainly an anxious heart.
I applied for poly already.
Whether anot I can enter into poly will be another question after seeing my posting results.
I'm in the crossroad once again.
Pre Grad blues. :/
I really hope that Ms Lang will not give up hope on us.
I just don't want to be useless or a disappointment again. :/
But well, I still rmb the encouragment tt I received when I collect my Olvl results in 2007.
It's a long time, but it etched deeply in my heart.
Plus importantly, what God has instructed me about not being worry about tommorow.
I'm at peace.
God was always with me throughout this course.
Thick and thin, He was there.
His blessings are unreadable.

I really hope that this coming few weeks will be a smooth one for me.
Gosh, I really don't wish to get into any more uneccessary trouble.
Please Lord!

I want to treasure the time.
It comes like a season and gone with the wind.

2010-01-31T19:54:00.005+08:00

Show a little bit of love and kindness...

This is going to be my final week working in the Cardiac Thoraxic ward! :)
Well... What do I say?
This time... ya i do grunt and grunt about the staff there being mean and all.
Till the point sometimes I really didn't have the mood at all.
Only when things happened you know that they are actually quite a nice lot.
Some of the ward staff left or changed.
Those that were once mean to us became nice to us.
lets hope is not because of the complaints they received that they are bullying the students.

It is definitely hectic to work in that ward.
Because the changes takes place very fast.
Patients admit and discharge very quickly.
However, those chronic ones has to stay longer.
This year I managed to witness a code blue case and got to see how CPR is being done on a real patient.
It's different on the dummy. It's real flesh wrap bones u are pressing.
Thank God he managed to be revived back, sent down to ICU.
Life and Death happens only in a split of second.

Last week, something happened.
I was called into sister's office.
It's because of some minor problem.
But well.. it was kinda stupid for that person to be all qurrelsome about it.
Me & my friend packed the patient's belongings.
In in happened to contain a water bottle that contained water in it.
But I refused to hear my friend advice to pour it away because I'm afraid it's some tonic or expensive stuff. Then we passed it to the nurse in charged and
then heard his maid took it in a rush
and we assumed that the water spilled on the way
Imagine if I were to pour away the bottle of water which contains tonic.
The complaint will demand payment and it will come from me can.

Well.. when I was locked behind the doors of them both.
I was quite calm but fearful.
I prayed to God to spare me out of this trouble.
And then the guy started saying:
Where is the nurse shadowing her?
You guys dont always try to blame the students for all the wrong things happened.
Why didn't the nurse that is overseeing her took the next step to check?
She is just a student, not even graduate.
Not even working in this ward yet.
I was thinking: Wah God! Unexpected answered prayer. Thank You!

Definitely I got my fair share of scolding la.
But it was not easy for the sister to handle because that man demands alot.
Well...The next day, I heard that he is some dentist and his other 2 bro is a NTU lecturer and another one is a PHD holder.
LIKE SO???
You are still human to me can.
It's quite irritating to deal with someone so unreasonable and use status to threaten you.
Incorrigible!

Well... ultimately you can still change hospital if you dont like the service.
So rich why don't bear to spend ur money on a private hospital.
That is all..Please try to understand the nurse and not demand too much.
You should stop thinking that nurse is an easy job. Until you taste it yourself.

Come to a lighter topic,
Amidst all the irritatingness,
There are certainly some interesting patients.
Some laugh and joke with you.
This time round I really laughed alot with my patients.
Well it's to help them to lighten their worries also.
Although there are some patient whom I have language barrier with,
It's still a joy trying to guess what they are trying to speak alien to you.

Some patients are just poor thing. Especially one uncle whom my friends and I were taking care after for the whole one week because he was diagnosed as cognitive impairment [Demential]. The whole family do not want him and did not even bother to come and visit him and threw him to some place and let the landlord to handle. It so reflects badly on them. After all, he is still your father who brought you up, took care of you and fed you. Even if he has ever done something wrong in his life, he still deserve your forgiveness. Don't tell me you are perfect. When you were young, you do all the bad things, didn't your parents forgive you time and time again even how hurt they were. They are rich somemore :/. Does rich ppl always have a problem? Please never think of doing it to your own parents. It's heartless. Shake heads. It's just too much! This uncle is really lovable but was a challenged at first. Although He is losing hs memory slowly, he was still good in his maths and old memories. :) Xin Ku Ni le Tracy :D

Maslow heirachy theory. Meeting the basic needs of the patient.
It's true. They will be much more nicer to you. :)
Students are always patients favourite.
Because we have got a 'T" face written all over our face.
and when we are at their service. :D
Should just buck up on my communicating skills.
I'm just very bad at it as it tends to reflect together with my first impression.

Today during choir, I was doing abit of multi tasking.
I was thinking and looking around while I'm singing.
Until I teared abit.
Amidst the deafning singing filled the santuary I was just looking around,
and I was just touched by someone who wants to sing so much but just couldn't.
and was just there to be a support in anyway the person could.
But the person was also practising and also hoping that God willing the person could come back to join us.
Just the look of the person just pains my heart.
This sincere heart of that person that I'm always encouraged by has gave the best to the Lord in the areas that the person is serving.
I really pray for God to enable the person to join us back once again and to testify God's faithfulness.
A blessing starts by looking out.

Don't ask why, but know why.

I was blessed by Rev. Simon spoke today, it was a spiritual awakening.

Well.. I'm still finding.
I cant understand why do ppl act the way they do sometimes.
Just pray that I will not start my mind digging again.
Keep simple and sweet.
I just got to learn what I ought to learn from God.

Please do not misunderstand me. because I'm easily misunderstood and be misunderstood.
Understand?

Pretty hard to managed some certains.
Graduation is in a month time.
Quickly it came, quickly it flew.
I'm going to apply for my poly soon.
Just pray for God's direction and will.
One step at a time i guessed.
Ppl are walking different paths and taking different routes.
For me? Well... God please be with me.
I really don't know.
Just like what my friend shared.
I'm also one of them that has no confidence.
But I got one whom I got confidence of my future.
It's FEBRUARY 01 tml.
Anor weeks time, we will be at a private ward.
We are going to work with higher status ppl who could afford a B1 2 bedder bed.
Just pray for wisdom at work and a heart that works closely with God.
My MS LANG is coming back!!!
Whoo HOO.. Miss her LOTS!!!

2010-01-13T20:40:00.005+08:00

Thank You, Nurse!!!

A heart full of love to give, is what you desire.
A life to save, is what you are required.
A pot filled with ingredients of warmth,adds to the colour.
To a Patient who might be weak & feeble.

It may be a glimmer of hope,
you may never wonder.
It may be an answer to prayer,
Just nice on that hour.

Keep on believing what God can do.
To be called as 'NURSE' escapes no mistakes.
Amour yourself with patiences' and passion full of blessings.
Never ceasing, Ever reaching.

Thank God for this inspiration to pen down this poem.
My attachement in Ang Mo kio community hospital is going to end coming Fri.
Over there, is really different.
People are filled with appreciation and gratefulness.
Even the people I worked with.
Constantly smiling even when they are tired.
Each day I see the patient,
They are slowly recovering ;)
The tiny thrill of excitement fills your day.

God is unbelievable Great!
I'm really thankful for blessing me with a Super Nice Teacher.
And I really mean it.
She relentlessly offer her help to us even if she needs to travel a distance.
She goes the extra mile to reach us.
What is bitter, when u finally taste sweetness. :)

Coming 2010,
Pray that it will be a genuine fresh start with my walk with God.
Pray for distractions to be deliever by God when it comes.
Pray for grace that is sufficient for each day.
Pray for a renewed spirit .
Pray that God will open my eyes to good and bad.
Pray for choices that I make each day that will be pleasing to God.
Pray that I could be a blessing to others and those closes to me.
Pray also that God will direct me to where He wants me to be next.

A love like circles never end.
If God is unreal, that what is real?

2010-01-11T17:37:00.003+08:00

It comes blank.
Let it be.

Pray that God will according to His will and purpose write my 2010 life story.

2009-12-23T22:30:00.004+08:00

A part of me would like to go, but a part of me say no.

Thank God for my results.
God's blessings are just countless.
Altho this yr is quite a bad yr for me,
however God made it brighter with the results that He blessed me.
Best Christmas present for 2009.

As much as I really dont like 2009,
I cant deny that God is and was still with me thoughout.
There's just too much to bear.
There's just too much to be easily swayed away.

I am still trying to be enlightened by things around.
I really meant it this time.
Well.. I wish I could spill everything out here... but no.

Events changed me,
circumstances pushed me,
Situations grabbed me.

I accept the fact that God is using all this was part of His moulding plans.
It's terribly bitter, but sweetness comes after.

Pray that 2010 would be a better yr ahead. :)

I probably have decided on the path on which God has certained in my heart.
Come what may, I would follow.

2009-12-05T00:43:00.002+08:00

Who is true to something always invisible.
Who realised it needn't always be possible,
and
Would be carried away by always visible.

Life brings more instead of living without a life.
Amusingly, blinded.
Sometimes, hidden.

It's left ajar.
It needs a resolved, yet not.
Probably it takes another to leave completely.

Proven over & over.
It needs an answer, somehow.
One day.

2009-12-01T15:42:00.004+08:00

Finally....

Exams is over!!! :D

Oh well, this time I'm really quite unprepared but God still see me thru.

Holiday time!!!!

Attachment is next. Got a very adorable teacher this time.

Well.. just look forward and see how bah.

Pretty fearful abt something.. Well Jasmine should be strong in the Lord.

Well.. 2009 is coming to an end.

As I think back, I felt that this year could be better than last yr.

Time to do some reflections.

Hopefully, 2010 would be better. :/

I cant bear certain things to change.

I will learn as I always do.

Going Malaysia soon ;)

After which, YF camp.

Cant wait for social Gathering.

Cant wait for Christmas.

slowly go by, Days.

Random...

Sometimes.. certain human are right abt somethings they say.

Unknowingly we judge ppl everyday, esp. those whom we know.

To say we are perfect, we are not.

We may be worst than who we talk abt and judge.

People cant stand a little bit of imperfection.

Lest God is able to stand the accumulation of our many imperfection.

Can I learn to be a humble imperfection?

I learn to breathe, I learn to walk.

Lest I forget who made me.

and take Him for granted.

2009-11-19T21:14:00.002+08:00

What's with me??

Thank God I passed my practical test and my Behavioural Test :)
It's a relieved that I've got this teacher who is nice.
Thank God for her that i've managed to pass! :D

Presented my project. Now left with mock test and exams.
And guess what.. It's quite irritating for teacher to remember your name during lecture.
My heart stopped every time I'm being called.
It's really scary!
Almost all the teacher suddenly keep calling my name to either answer questions, tell story or comment on sth.
Haha.. the most funny comment after a teacher called my name is : "JASMINE WEE suddenly came into my mind"
I'm like -_-""" Sweats. hopefully it's not bad things that's y they rmb me. anyway..
i didn't do anything wrong tho.. accept maybe i'm famous coz i got a famous CP attachment teacher.
What on earth man!... this week.. all 2 lecture lessons + contact time.. I've been called. HAA..

My onco teacher oso very cute.
Asked me to help her open cupboard..
gave me wrong key told her is not the correct key.
She kept insisting that it is correct.
Turn until my hand pain then suddenly she came out with other key
guess what.. I'm right. HAHA.. she is just interestingly cute!

The term is ending soon. Pls tell me what to do.

God pls lead me.

2009-11-17T19:57:00.002+08:00

She finally understood the picture and can only guess for now.

Tml is my practical test.
Hopefully I can do well.
After this, I can take a little break :)
My Girlfriend is an agent... WHoOhoO..

It's always the case. Either or.

2009-11-15T18:23:00.003+08:00

Have you ever felt incompetent? I do.

Coming weds will be my practical test on Hickman's line dressing.
It may be easy, but well never overestimate what is counted as easy.
Praying hard that I will be able to perform well!

Am I that bad? Maybe I am really that bad.

2009-11-10T20:51:00.004+08:00

Beginning of life is death,
beginning of love is emptiness, or maybe pride?

2 Projects down.
This and next thurs is my Sociology test and Oncology Prac Test.
School term seems to fly pass so fast.
Got sick last week.
Seems my immune is not working well.
Thank God it has recovered.
It's better to get sick now then later.
I love getting small sick. It made me energise up!
After another 2 more weeks, I'm taking my exams. :/
Not tt prepared tho. I'm going to do my very best and start early!
Have been throwing mood swings recently.

Sometimes I really wonder why it has to happen on me...
It seems unfair all the time.
I hate it all together totally.
However, what I could do was only to smile it off.
Same word, used once used thrice.
It's still Tired.
I just needed that one thing.

It made me sick!
It made me realised.
It made me question.
Why did I even need to think.
God have Mercy. I'm sorry.

I want no more.

2009-11-02T22:50:00.002+08:00

I'm Sick but i'm High! :)

2009-10-25T22:17:00.005+08:00

Lord, what's next?

This week passed by pretty fast.
Due Dates for Projects, tests & prac test is coming.
And.. anor mth in coming towards e end.
Meetings after meetings everywhere.
No time to breathe sometimes.
It's tiring but i'm quite happie. :)
Because it occupies my time wisely.

I'm just thinking abt my last attachment.
It gave me a bad nightmare. :/
Now I really have to trust and depend on God.
The fear is unexpressable.
Unknown abt my future, but God holds every tommorrow.
Constantly reassured me that He is in control.

I wish no more of pebbles and stones that stands in the way.
But God use this to path the way as our sidelines.
Faith is just believing, that God will not leave us.
He is watching and guiding.

Was just pondering...

sometimes, listening ear is needed.
sometimes, gesture of love warmths e heart.
sometimes, supporting is encouragment.
sometimes, understanding is crucial.
sometimes, asking is care.
sometimes, reaching is better than waiting.
sometimes, praying is better than hoping.
sometimes, silence is love.

We serve a God who knew nothing about sometimes to all this, but everytime to all.

Bought by the Blood, yet not like the one who shed His Blood for us.
Guilty?
Be ye imitators of our Lord Jesus Christ. -1 Cor 11:1-

Love without condemnation.

2009-10-20T21:49:00.004+08:00

It's yesterday once more.
by Carpenters.

When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
And when they played
I'd sing alone
It made me smile.

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again

Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.
Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed.

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry.
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

2009-10-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

Thank God it's Friday.

It was definitely an exciting week :)
God worked in many ways, even least expected.
Thank God I passed my posting, after having to locate where my book end up.
Hmm.. well the comments that she gave.. i guess i have to accept it anyway.
Well marks wise, I have no right to stand in for any demands.
I assume that is what God deems best for me :) Contentment.
This week was quite a problem. Even my locker was not with me [it was infested by spiders].
Just pray for the many responsibilities that i'm tied down with.
Pray for wisdom to handle it one at a time.

It lingers but not stay. It fogets but still remains.

2009-10-13T21:07:00.002+08:00

If 2012 marks the end of this world,

Why do i still need to work so hard now.

The fact is, God is still in control.

Tho we live, tho we die.

I live with this and end with this: "Surely I come Quickly"

Maybe today, My Lord will come for me.

How many times ppl foretell the future but it didn't really happened.

"Sigh!" Search.
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Thank God for sch reopening.

Oncology is interesting. :)

Abit zzZZZ because of how the teacher conducts the lessons.

But shall learn to adapt to her style slowly. :)

So far sch is a slack. I've got so much break in between.

Thank God it is taking it easy.

Thank God even we had a mixed of other class.

Means more friends? :)

What a different take of approach.
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Sometimes, the more you try to escape,
the more it comes back to you.
Maybe I should make the first move. :/

2009-10-05T13:56:00.003+08:00

Random.

It's understood.
It can only be forgotten as time goes by.
Same as it is, same as it left.
Sometimes I wonder, what's the point.
But yet sometimes, simple as it is.
Nothing.
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Holidays are coming to an end.
School is starting once again :)
Thank God that my Socio Proj is halfway done!
Looking forward to the new beginning of the new term.
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2009-09-27T21:33:00.014+08:00

U -Turns in Life...

If you wander off too far,
My love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star,
My love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself,
lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of Me,
My love will get you home.
Boy, My love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes,
My love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride,
My love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself,
lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of Me,
My love will get you home.
Boy, My love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed,
My love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame,
My love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of Me,
My love will get you home.
Boy, My love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself,
lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of Me,
My love will get you home.
Boy, My love will get you home,
Boy, Mylove will get you home.

Although this song is "worldly" but i've changed nothing but just capped it to symbolise God.

Today's sermon was especially close to my heart.

Although Rev. Simon preached about the prodigal's son.

But I liked his different approach, which is to concentrate on the prodigal's son distractions.

Now it explains why this song lyrics I've pasted above.

I find it especially encouraging and refreshing.

The worldy distractions are just too overwhelming, even in church.

We aren't perfect, we are still humans bound to be distracted.

A few kinds of distractions that he named it powerful : Physical, Spiritual[service], emotional, visual & audio.

Actually, the conclusion I drew for myself is that if you've just got one distraction, you've got it all.

Repent or remorse? Submitting or demanding? trusting or arguing?

Indeed, Becareful little Eyes what you see, Becareful little ears what you hear, etc. for the Father up above is looking down on earth...

I thank God for the opportunity to invest my fridays to attend Romans Bible study.

Since it's not Mon or Weds, coz when I start school, I might not be able to commit.

I thank God for the chance to learn Romans so in depth.

This is how God is so detailed when he spoke.

One verse alone speak for alot of things that you might missed.

2 things I'm reminded is that:

We sing:
Dear wonderful Jesus, Saviour divine.
We are the branches, you are the vine.
You brought us salvation and made the sun shine.
Dear wonderful saviour, marvellous friend, I'm glad You are mine. :)

Sometimes, when we are serving do we forget who is the vine and what are we ?

I learnt that :

i've to be humble at all times, reminding ourselves not to let our head grow big to think that we are smarter than God.

When we are serving God, our focus should be that Jesus should increase and I must decrease.

Secondly,

We are called before the foundation of the world. [Predestined]

Not when we are born or has received Christ.

He knew us before we knew him,

just like how He knew Paul but Paul did not knew Him.

And He called Paul to be an apostle. [messenger & ambassador for Christ]

So likewise, God has paved Paul's way, that include ours.

The just shall live by faith! :)

I've pretty much enjoyed the stay over at Gwyneth house for the ladies meeting :)

It was also challenging, after having learnt about what it takes to be a Proverbs 31 woman.

Phew! it's really tiring to be a woman. Not sure if I ever wanna be a man anyway. Haa

Guessed i've scared too many away "grins".

That's why it says this way and not the opp. : Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.

It was a nice experience having to learnt to bake Macaroni Cheese. :)

This week sums up a week of fruitful lessons that i've taken home.

God spoke in different ways and timings, even if at a point I didn't understood why He did.

I guessed, I should take things slower and filter those that needs to be filter out.

Now my head feels lighter with almost all my problems somehow quite settled.

Well.. never run away from God, He is faster than you..

Always waiting at the ending point to call you back home. :)

Give up all and take up the cross daily.

2009-09-21T20:48:00.006+08:00

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that hold your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.
Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.
Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.
When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.

2009-09-17T18:22:00.005+08:00

On the, GO!!!!

Remembering the old times makes me appreciate God even more.
Sometimes people are just too comfortable with their lives.
Today my teacher shared why about her past.
I really thank God that my past weren't like hers.
Spoilt and arrogant.
She is rich, i guessed [coz she had nothing to lack, and she had all that she wanted.]
Well, not wanting to be in nursing yet she still got it was really what she and I agreed that it was God's will. She really learnt what is it like to be humble after teaching in ITE.
I'm pretty encouraged by what she shared. :)

I guess, being brought up in such a messy situation is part of God's plan,
and it is still part of His great plan for me.
I don't really like to think about my childhood.
Well, Even so, I guess it only serves a reminder how God is Great.
I'm contented with what God will's blesses me. :)
Second chance was when I had Jesus in my heart.
However, most of the time, I misused this second chance by making Him upset.

Tommorrow will be my last day of 2.1
I got a little emotional again after talking to Mdm Suriyati today.
I told her that I feel so guilty of letting her down.
She is kind of shocked that all her A graders did not maintained.
However, I really am glad that I had the chance to talk about it.
I knew someday like this will come.
But, of course she still didn't look disappointed. Which I felt a sense of relieved.

I'm pretty encouraged by what Rev. Simon preaching at Weds' prayer meeting.
First was "Dangerous "Little" and second was "Fishers of Man"

Indeed, little sins are like yeast, they can multiply into sth e.g. bread dough to be big.
Bottom line: How are we handling our little sins?
I can testify, it's really hard to get rid of little sins.
But we still have to so that it will not be an obstruction to our service to God.

Fishers of Man, we should just follow God's instructions no matter what circumstances.
Just like Simon Peter, His life was in a messed when God was not in the equation of His life. Although Jesus was preaching to a great crowd, He paid attention to Peter needs.
Peter failed to caught any single fish for the whole half day,
after which he asked for helped and listened to Jesus simple instructions
and he caught plentiful fishes.

God knew Peter even when he was borned.
He wasn't somebody great to start with but of a lowly status: Fisherman.
Then became an apostle doing what God had intended and prepared for him to do.
Are we willing to just follow God's simple instruction?
Many a times we follow our heart to make decision.
And yes, sometimes I felt worthless to many people.
But well, ultimately I'm reminded again.
God will appreciate.

Pray for a spiritual revival..
I'm pretty agonized by certain things going on...
But, I hope we are reminded not to fall into satan's trap.
I wished things will get better.
First, it should start from me.
Shouldn't dwell on unhappy things.
I will try my best to stay focus.
I'm back! :0)

Oops, oh ya did I mentioned that I have gotten Oncology as my elective :)
Thank You Lord! :)

Forgive and be reconciled. Then God will bless.

2009-09-16T15:20:00.003+08:00

I'm a BCLS provider.

Thank God for His blessings. :)

I thank God for helping me to pass this BCLS course which is really one tough nut.

Although it's quite easy on the surface but not when you really experience it yourself.

However, God is good. :)

One step further..

Keep a positive spirit!

2 more days!!!!!!! HOLIDAYS!!!! WHEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I cant wait!!!

Have a new Class Advisor.. She is a very good example of a good mother. :)

What it means to love and to give willingly.

2009-09-08T20:38:00.004+08:00

What a beautiful coincidence.

Me and my 2 cousins were just one year older and younger. [1989-1992]
Now our family have another DO RE ME. :)
Declan 2008, my cousin's daughter 2009, my brother's baby due 2010. :)

School have been just going well. :)
Too much time waste because lessons were easy to grasp and short.
I'm Glad to have Mdm Suriyati [my Clinical Posting teacher for 1.2] to be my Co-CA with Ms Julie [My Class Advisor for year 1.1] :)
She is strict yet fun. Well.. i'm pretty shy to talk to her because of my CP matters.
Not really shy, I feel abit sorry towards her coz I let her down in some ways.
That I still cannot let go. But Thank God no sign of disappointment shown on her face.
Seeing Mdm Tan just scares me off. Now she will give me her exagerated look o.0 with her smugging smile and call me: "Yes, Jasmine!" "Sweats"
But obviously it's nothing wrong. If she had not been my CP teacher. I guess she will be one of the teacher that I missed for her teaching. But well, I still miss her teaching but I guess when school reopens she will surely teach in combined lectures.

I pray hard that I wont fall sick.
I feel sick, but i'm not.
Migraine is hitting me off and on.
This is bad.
I promised I slept enough, but it's just not working.
My Throat is pain. Guess is because of the food tt i've ate. Maybe.
Oh well.. will keep myself away from any funny bugs.

Arites.. So fast tml is Weds!

"I will seek the lost, and I will bring back the strayed, and I will bind up the injured, and I will strengthen the weak." Ezekiel 34:16

When you never knew it's right. It's right.

2009-09-07T16:38:00.002+08:00

When it reaches..

:) SO good to be back at school somehow.

Bang!... Coming Mon is "the day".
We will be doing our Practical and MCQ test for BCLS.
Man it's scarry!!

I'm officially an Aunty again :)
My Cousin gave birth to a Baby Girl safely today.
Congrats!

I want to know.

2009-09-06T22:23:00.004+08:00

Somehow it summarizes everything.

I may just go off mad.
Leave me as I am for just awhile.
2 more weeks to holiday. I cant wait!

I Know Who Holds Tomorrow

I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.

I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

Every step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden's getting lighter,
Every cloud is silver-lined.

There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eye;
At the ending of the rainbow
Where the mountains touch the sky.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

I don't know about tomorrow;
It may bring me poverty.
But the one who feeds the sparrow,
Is the one who stands by me.

And the path that is my portion
May be through the flame or flood;
But His presence goes before me
And I'm covered with His blood.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

How many times I tried to paste the pieces of clay back.
But it's flaws sees for a need to be cure with the help only from the Potter.

2009-09-05T10:08:00.003+08:00

Finally!!!

The worst is somewhat over.
I'm pretty relieved.
Thanks to those who cared enough to pray for me and praying for me to be able to go back to school HAA :)

The babies are just adorable... But some are very poor thing being abandon.
Please be responsible for your child!
Cant stand irresponsible parents.
If you dont have the means to give birth to one, don't make one.
If you dont love your life, dont make ur child suffer for the life that you choose to lead.
Just turn on ur black box to see how many children are suffering for the sick of this irresponsible parents who care only for themselves.
Goodness!

Ytd was just not a very good day to start with.
I felt like an idiot [A REAL IDIOT].
Being scolded for helping out to buy gifts to teacher and wards becomes my fault.
Too much for that person to say me until like that.
You hate me, i dont care.
Don't make me stand there like an idiot for you to scold.
I'm not related to you. Who are you to teach me what to do.
cant you speak properly. cant you be more polite.
This is really madness.
Does it even gain you any benefit in talking behind other peoples back.
Being nice with such people, sometimes is just wasting my energy.
Cant cool down with such people who treat me like a dumb.
I may not talk much or express much of myself.
But don't you dare treat me like as if i'm stupid.
Don't give me that face of urs, it disgust me to the core~!
If you don't want to pay, say so. Nobody is forcing you!
But anyway, "thanks" for what you taught me.
It's not going to be anymore of my business.

Sometimes I really want to know why???
Im useless.. yea maybe I am.

Very bad mood. who cares.
Being e no. 1 fool time and time always.
Thanks!

2009-09-04T00:41:00.002+08:00

I guess it all comes down to where your heart lies...
and ur thought begins..

Finally tml marks the end of my 2.1 posting...
Don't know how and what to feel.

I'm just am exhausted from this posting, so do my teacher.
Both need a break.

I've definitely meet my objectives.
But not my teacher's objectives.
Seen so much, do so much.

God is still there for me.
I am thankful that He preserved me from certain situations.
It's WOW to see how God answering your prayer instantly.
That is how God's presences is proved.
I'm pressed for time to complete my skills,
God always gave me a you still got time. :)
I've managed to complete 9 of my critical skills.
Praise the Lord. It's highly impossible actually.
But.. I still might have a high chance of failing this posting.

Well.. God's will be done. :)

I'm tired. Now going back to sch relaxes me abit i hope.
BCLS [Basic cardiac life support] is coming up.. anor round of stress[ and i mean it STRESS].
Hope i can go through it with a pass, i'm happy enough.
It's a certification program to be trained in CPR.
I miss my my friends :)

You keep me wondering...

2009-08-31T22:29:00.006+08:00

Having a different mind. Interesting.

Missed my opportunity of getting competency today.
Blamed on myself.
Arghh nvm. At least I tried asking to do dressing with her.
Now Ngee Ann students are here too.
Means we wun be able to do alot of skills.
Thank God i manage to book 1 out of 4 dressing.
That include infant bathing. :/
Theirs is their teacher book and find for them
It's really feeding baby.
Grr.. Just dont like stereotypers.
At least there are those who dont show biasism.
nvm.. the babies made my day.
They are super lovable and they are freshies. :)
Just came out from their mother's womb :)

Having a baby is not easy.
This one, guys will nv understand.
First time being able to hear the foetus heartbeat from a machine.
SO cool! Plus I cut a caeserian sutures today! :)
Being a mother is so scarry but yet so thrilling. :)
It's deifnitely one most noblest job ever.

Overheard a loud conversation from a secondary sch girls on bus today.
In a relationship there must be trust.
Well.. I guess some girls goes by intiution and some guys by emotions.
To me, Trust might never be in the equation for an immature courtship.
If trust is the basis, why wont it last then?
Although yes, there will be a certain level of trust.
Just a thought.

Why like that huh?

2009-08-30T21:44:00.003+08:00

When will we realise

My Last week at KKH tml.. sigh! tml need to face her in the morning.. Shoosh.. have to be super proactive.
Throw away the fear, because it gets in the way.

Pls pray real hard for me.
Thank God tues is a public holiday!!! Which means I can sleep and rest!!!!!

Well.. a trial is not easy to go through. But with God, I must say it's bearable.
I think it caused me to think whether I'm ready to be used by God.
Saying is one thing, doing is another.

If life is all smooth, life has not reach to it's fullest.

If testing seems dying, trials means an end.

To the end, we will still be given a road to move on.

choices are not made everyday, it's made every sec, min, hr.

Be wise ...

coping with alot of changes.

Rejoice in bad times. Hmm.

Recently.. just thinking back about alot of things.
I've somehow a person who is a failure to alot of things.
How could i possibly still stand up

I'm a detestable girl to many even now.
I'm only a nobody to anybody, but somebody to somebody.
All by the grace of God.

SO.. I shouldnt judge others. I'm no better than others.

Because there will be ppl who hates me.

Do i just get upset and adopt a self pity attitude?

Only God knows me best.

We need God for reconciliation.

2009-08-24T20:34:00.003+08:00

Not being what it takes to be.

Not getting anything out of it.

Not reaching something out of it.

Not to prove nothing that it was meant to be.

Not to think of it when it is not it .

Coming to being what it takes to be

Coming to get everything out of it.

coming to reach something out of this.

coming to prove nothing that it was meant to be.

coming to think it is not that it is.

Complexity vs Simplicity.

All who are nothing, gain the most out of it.

Understanding takes years, application take mins.

It's knowing you and you first before you get to know others.
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Very Random I know.
Try read my mind to know what it means. :)
Purely what I'm thinking.
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Being very small in a very country.
Being very tiny in a very tiny planet in milky way.
If God was not bigger than all this, he could not have been called Above All.
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This 2 weeks I will be in KK so familiar coz our church went there one christmas a few years ago.

I remeber standing on that particualr spot giving out tracts :)

I will be going to Paeds and Woman and neonatal ward for my posting.

It's really pure.

What I meant was joy. How marvellous God has made us all differently.

The innocents that baby has, reminds me of what God wants us to be. Innocent as a child, imitating His footsteps.

Was also thinking what is peace? not world peace but heart peace. When you see a baby sleep, it was what that means.

Why did I lose so much of this when i grow up? A pity life cannot be rewind back.
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What I call simple and contented.

During, my life in IMH.. God was not out of the equation. He was in it even with people who were mentally unwell.
One could even remember that He attended church when he was very young and profess Jesus when asked what religion he was.
God did not and will not leave anyone who acknowledges Him.

I really enjoyed my time there and thank God for being able to bring joy to some whom I've spoke to. Although it was really harsh to leave them just when we got to know them better.

It was also the first time that I daringly, shared my life story from 0-19 yrs old with them all gentlemens with 3 other ladies in a therapieutic activity which not even most of my friends outside or in church knows about it. The encouragement that I've got touched my heart because it came from people whom i did not get to speak when i was there a week.

At that point, I really understood what means to share without obligations or worries. It was like talking to a group of people that you've know for a long time ago. And 4 racial group was present, marvellous! :) Well, i really pray and wishes well for each of them.

Song that we sang and I played with the guitar on the last day :)

You are our sunshine,
our only sunshine,
you made us happy
during our stay,
You never know Dear,
How much we love you,
So please don't take that smile of yours away.

I will never forget this precious memories that I've taken away for being there for just 2 weeks. and some staffs who inspired me :)

Guess nowadays, life is so ruthless and fast that no one have time for such face to face anymore, time has become a factor, studies and work have become the second, comfort is being measured to your earnings, never enough , never contented. And also yes, just like me, now typing on this computer [one way] which might make me an introvert whom might just be one of the many who bottle up many things that has not been release out to any.

How I wish, someday...
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Oh well, and yes my mood is definitely like such as a Mild Bipolar Disorder [Mood disorder]. Being quite bad at handling stress when too much things just come at one go, and having to try suppress some of them, my mind is really stagnant and blank. Unhealthy yes, you definitely hate it, that you would have some regrets to certain actions you have done or did to certain. In the midst of all this, thank God for His word daily that direct my thoughts back to Him. It's a learning processed. I really want what I call as My crisis to be an opportunity to serve God and see God at work.

Having to sing so0 many times May the Lord find us faithful also reminds me I am just a weak human who needs God to walk with me.

Never let my heart grow cold,
never let me go.

If you are seeing what the world is happening now, you and I got to realise we are not living in lala land anymore.
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I'm leaving my attachment into God's hand again, i will do my part to swallow snake guts no.. It's God's strength and go for the shot to get everything upside right. and leave it for God's will to be done. Oh well, i still have to face her for my next attachment. So well, shall try overcoming the barrier I have with her. Keep me in prayer and pray for spiritual and physical strength from God. Thank You. :)
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Yes I am, not going to be who I am. But to who I AM, I am who I am. :)

2009-08-23T19:17:00.004+08:00

A bite that is waiting to heal.

My IMH posting has come to an end. Next is KK. Hmmm Just hope everything goes well.
Pray hard for me when i deal with babies and children [esp. babies]. 2 more weeks with her.

If she is what she says she is. I will try to believe she will be.

2009-08-13T18:53:00.005+08:00

It's rather a contridicting day. TODAY SHALL BE IT.

Oh well got back my surgical posting results, pass but lower this time.

Oh well.. I really don't understand this teacher.
I cant and I don't think I can ever understand her mind.
She took her revenge on me today.
Just by how she started to use her method of defence to justify our wrongdoings..
e.g FORCING US to write a letter to prove what skills we approach her to do and not and why, calling the Head of nursing to come talk to us, and totally twisting what she say with no trace of evidence. clever of her.
Worst thing to know that she is a christian. The last thing you want to know is that she is going to FORCE US to write positive comment about her and no negative or complaint feedback if not she will tear in front of you and write again till she is satisfied. Never in my whole wide life!!!!!

Why do adults always think that they are always right.
Come on lah!! Seriously by asking us to voice out don't change anything.
You guys still don't understand AT ALL.
Think we are crapping and giving excuse all the time.
I really don't understand.
How can I ever entrust any of these problem to any teachers already.
All like not trying to help but making it worst. Seriously...

Next thing is she is trying to test my limits.
I nearly give her my peace of mind. I really want to.
Tears of anger nearly flow down.
She really thinks that i'm not taking any initiative AT ALL.
When she is around, I have always called her to assess my skills alot.
She still can tell me I never take initiative.
What's all the hell about initiative!!!
Suddenly she assessed me and snap at me. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Biang.. I don't care already write all she wants!
If she thinks wad we complaint is unreasonable and being "scared" is not the reason.
Then SO BE IT!

Somemore she can still say : I understand students can be scared of teacher and postphone calling me to do skills with him/ her. Honestly who have this problem, raise up your hands.
After that: It' cannot be the excuse. What is there to scared when I've nv scold you guys when you approach me for skills.

Grrr... Ehhh we are still humans lei.
I really want to ventilate out already. I cannot tahan.
She trying to be nice one day and not the next have already build a huge barrier btw us already lo. The fear that we as student cant even voice out our unhappiness and to keep in silence to suffer and take in everything.

She is way too much as a teacher.
Cant believe such a human exist.
SO what if she lowered her standards
SO what if she care for us.
I doubt her concern now and ever already.
I think she is another hypocrite, tell us how bad the other lecturers and students are.
still can chit chat and eat with them so nicely.
Biang. If can record i cfm will let the whole world hear.
She is getting on my nerve.

Judge me for whatever you want. I really cannot stand it anymore!
It is so0 stressing.
I guess only God knows.
Retribution or whatever. I dun care! If i fail I repeat then.
PISSED OFF!

I AM JUST A HUMAN.

2009-07-30T19:52:00.003+08:00

Not bright, no future???

Failures in life..
Is how you manage it. Now how you deal with it.
Is anything too hard for the Lord?

I guess it may likely to happen now, the failure I need to face.
My teacher has given up on us. :/
Oh well.. Didn't know how to react today.
She finally gave her full blast today till she cried alittle.

I pity her position.
I remembered what she said to me when I received my result for my first posting.
I guess, I have got to learn.
Just as I do my best to make full use of her day today and hoping tml will also be.

Just as things got better. Then it happen that which makes teacher pissed off
and took leave for the whole of next week + tml.
How am I going to complete my skills which I need to perform with her. :/
Tml is my last morning.. yet she will not be coming.
Well.. God Knows best.

If I had to repeat.. I guess it will going to be the 2nd disappointment to my parents.
Pray that God will give my to accept it. I'm still quite calm about it.

When will it end???

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I guess in life,
There will be many stresses that God will place in ur life.
Things you name it one by one.
God did not promised skies always blue.
Here we always put our blame on God.
Where are you , when we needed him most.
We always wonder if God was ever near us.
He said: "... I am with you always."
We placed our hopes and standards on humans.
We forget who set our standards and who are we to please.
Our mind are not directed wholly unto God.
Where have our mind wondered off?
His word is answer.
People turn to the heart and follow their emotions.
Just what are we treating God as sometimes?
Have we wonder everytime.

God loves us.
He earns for our love too.
Just what are we concentrating more?
Have we ask ourselves?

I guess through this reflection, I really understand what it really means to lift it up to God.
I guess I was not concentrating enough.

Find joy in the Lord,
Search for the true meaning.
Because He lives, we can face tommorrow.

His Love
His love is warmer than the warmest sunshine
Softer than a sigh.
His love is deeper than the deepest ocean
Wider than the sky.
His love is brighter than the brightest star
That shines every night above
And there is nothing in this world
That can ever change my love.

Something happened to my heart the day that I met Him
Something that I never felt before
And that something is that He has buried all my sins
And everyday I know He loves me more.

His love is warmer than the warmest sunshine
Softer than a sigh.
His love is deeper than the deepest ocean
Wider than the sky.
His love is brighter than the brightest star
That shines every night above
And there is nothing in this world
That can ever change His love

Once I thought that love was meant for anyone else but me
Once I thought no one knew the way
Now it only goes to show how wrong we all can be
For everyday I love you more each day.

His love is warmer than the warmest sunshine
Softer than a sigh
His love is deeper than the deepest ocean
Wider than the sky
His love is brighter than the brightest star
That shines every night above
And there is nothing in this world
That can ever change His love.

2009-07-27T23:18:00.003+08:00

God Knows Best.

I'm ever ready for the worst to come. It may or may not happen.
Praying for the last few weeks with her to be doing my best and rushing to do all the skills I need to accomplish coz I only left realistically a few more days to complete many more skills.
I envy the rest of the other groups. but I cant envy. It's a sin.
I can only blame myself for not being lion enough to approach her.
I'm just a rat. I want to go heaven now. ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Well.. now we are allowed to go for IMH posting 2 week starting from next next week after go KKH 2weeks.
I cant escaped from this 2posting.
I need to get ready to wake up real early for 1 mth to catch the first bus and first train.
Studying for her test, which she kindly wanted to help us.
Bring the tabbner now everyday. Thanks.

This is really a huge testing this yr.
Will I get through it?
I know that I surely do not wan to go through it by my own strength.
God is the one who grants me strength and is in control.
I thank God for this I called BIG trial, even tho it cannot be compared to others out there.
Will I still be able to rejoice in it?
God Knows best.

But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
Well... yes Lord, you know where my weakness are and what I've not being trusting you enough. Teach me Lord, what you want me to learn.

Continue to keep me in ur prayers :) If you are kind enough to mention a prayer for me. I'm thankful for those who had kept me in prayers and also who had encourages me alot.

It Is Well With My Soul

When peace like a river attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul.

Refrain:

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul. [Refrain]

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part, but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, Praise the Lord, O my soul! [Refrain]

And Lord haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll,
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul. [Refrain]

2009-07-25T00:29:00.002+08:00

First posting finished.

Finally.. this year attachment really made us all moodless to do anything to thank the ward staff properly. Felt so bad when some were very nice to us. :/ Well we see how it goes. We still can send them our appreciation.

Next posting will be at Orthopaedic ward. Hmm, this time round I will take super more initiative. Coz Time is running for the no. of skills tt have to be completed.

Teacher and me.. same :/ Pray hard.

I'm reminded by God's word from Colossians 3.

Real testing have come. Learn to Rejoice in it Jasmine! Stop Tearing. :/

2009-07-17T21:05:00.003+08:00

Venting machine.
2weeks seems so long.. When will it be over? Endure!

This week.. It's seems long but yet so fast.
Certain days were good, some were bad.
She said to me once again : I'm trying to help u, but yet u not helping urself.
To a certain extend, yes.
To a certain distance, no.
Makes me wonder really..
Is Nursing for me now?
So many threats in my head ringing.
That's it. Jasmine
Never in my mind I regretted joining nursing..
But this teacher really push my limit way to far.
I must endure. Although I know my marks will be super down.

This week God has been my guide, he comforts me with His peace.
He taught me humble lessons from words in Ephesians 1-3 and death.
Well to see the patients that I took care for a week or 2 is now gone.
Big challenge coming up..
No more IMH now. Thank God but ARGH!!! Y no?
I dont wan it so much that it came true.
Thanks to 2 students who was tested H1N1 positive causing a outbreak in IMH.
Now everybody are not allowed in.
So I'm going to face her for 2 months in ward attachment.
Goodness!

I'm just praying that my teacher/ lecturer will be more reasonable and patient.
I pray that she will understand that her negativity can kill a person morale.
I pray that i will be able to understand wat is she trying to say
and communication will not breakdown.
Since she hates that smile and grins of mine.. I guess I better stop smiling at her.
Whatever is it. I really dislike ppl using intelligence to measure me.
So what if I have GPA 3.5 above. That doesn't mean anything
I dislike ppl who use their intelligence on me to put me down or..
Thinks that coz i have this means i'm too clever. I'm not
PRAYING EVERYDAY.. she will understand.

Nv had such a "Memorable" attachment.
Arent we still students.
I dislike ppl who use such excuses as I was young before.
I understand how it feels.
Actually not at all.
It's different now.

My emotions and heartbeat = roller coaster.

God is still my source of strength each day.

2009-07-13T20:24:00.004+08:00

Have you any idea how Hell would look like?
I think I've tasted 20% of it.

Expected.
Attachement started.
First day.. second day..
The Tigeress started to Roar.
Embarrassment infront of public, corridors of the ward and those teaceher who loved me just e second day for her false accusation or u call it assumption.
Tong tong also have. My face is thrown down to the drain already.
She is not to be provoked. Or else u have no good xia chang.
It's a very stressful week till I broke down in tears in front of some when I shared or kena scolded.
Couldn't take it already. It's tough.
Makes me feel so useless and stupid being under her.
Thanks to those who encouraged me so0 much. [Tracy gal, Da jIe, Rachel, Jaime.... ]
It was much needed at that point.

She degrades me like anything.
Just becoz my GPA is good. Just one week she determine my A is gone. thanks
I dun go there becoz i'm blinded by all my skills and wanting to get A.
It's a privilege to get A, not that I deserve it.
Yes so what if i'm no good in my skills.
Don't tear my confidence.
Not being able to perform well under you is because of the pressure u're enforcing on me.
Theory good doesn't mean my practical is tt great.
She don't seems to get it.
Everything or actions seems to be stupid and no logic to her.
I'm really praying very Hard enough. Not tt I never pray.
I'm trying to be tolerant to all this.
Even she is showing favouritism or even trying to make me feel bad by praising my other friend.
This is driving nuts for NUTS. What could I do.. I just needed to shut up and acknowledge it.
This has alwasy been Jasmine "fault".
Life is always about accepting the blame even though it's not mine. :/
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well.. God reminded me. In good or bad times rejoice.
So i shouldn't be like tt. But well i just need to vent it off.
My heart is palpitating everyday, be it morning or night.
Hoping tt friday night will just come quickly now.
It's that bad already.
I envy those who are under teacher's tt seems to be a little more concern in the areas of the heart.
I guess.. this is a GREAT testing God is putting me through.
Trying to still put on a christlike attittude.
But i'm being very very patient to accept all this !*&#^.
Life with her is not what you would u pray for. Even I pity her children.
She may be nice but... Her PMS is everyday. it's swings quite fast.
4 more days.. probably live would be easier for 3 weeks at IMH.

Thank God for his word tt reminded me..
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you.
Not as the world give I unto you.
Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." John 14:27.
That's my prayer everyday, whenever I get demoralise badly.
I'm already a demoralise kid. I think this made it worse.
Great. Thanks.

In addition, the world is ugly, it is not until u step into the working world.
People are wearing two mask.
People aren't really that helpful and can surely be a threat to you.
What's the use of learning certain subjects in school last time and not applying it?
Sin is really a great temptation. That you would rather continue to play this game.
"Welcome to life!" :/

Hopefully the next post would be better.

Sorry for the runtings.. I know this is not right or nice but well.. just let this be here. Thanks.
Please pray for me.
Hopefully I dun get crazy before I enter IMH.
I might just need a bed there, ready for me if my brain nerve burst.

2009-07-03T12:19:00.006+08:00

Goodbye Holidays, Hello Attachment.

This time, I felt that my holidays were quite the same and abit boring until it's starting to hype up then now it's going to end.. sigh! But thank God for the rest. :)

Rusty brain going back to learning.
No more late mornings but early mornings.
No more late nights but early turn in.
no more fun but everyday it will be even more exciting.
Cos' I'm expecting tt this time round my attachment will teach me great deal of lessons abt life.
From Old - adult- adolescent - new born.
Take home: A new phase of change in myself in this profession.

Stay positive! Too much negative will just kill my brain and me.

I thank God for being able to spend more time with certain ppl although not all.
I'm sorry abt that. But well.. God allowed me to hang out with friends old and new :)
Far and near :) haa. Got to exercise. To be honest i'm pretty lazy to work out this days.
No push or drive for it. But at least I got to learn how to play squash properly :)

I realised i still have places that I wan to go! Like the sitting the "Big Eye". But too bad.. no more offer liao :/ oh well.. haa next time then.

This blog will start to rust again since I'm not going to online as much as what I could during holiday.. will definitely be tired to even think of switching on the computer.
Schedule:
2 weeks in NUH.
3 Weeks in IMH - this is the killer coz everyday I have to be there at 7am.
Last 2 weeks KKH
Total: 2 half months.

No prayer meetings again, no precepts.

However, no regrets joining nursing. Coz it's a profession that shapes ur character.
I pretty hope I wont be those nurse that are bo chap and machined.

I've said much. :) God Bless! I will update if I could. :) This is a song that I'm reminded as i'm going to start my journey in work again.

He Hideth my Soul
A wonderful Savior is Jesus my Lord,
A wonderful Savior to me;
He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock,
Where rivers of pleasure I see.

Refrain:
He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock
That shadows a dry, thirsty land;
He hideth my life with the depths of His love,
And covers me there with His hand,
And covers me there with His hand.

A wonderful Savior is Jesus my Lord,
He taketh my burden away;
He holdeth me up, and I shall not be moved,
He giveth me strength as my day. [Refrain]

With numberless blessings each moment He crowns,
And filled with His fullness divine,
I sing in my rapture, oh, glory to God
For such a Redeemer as mine! [Refrain]

When clothed in His brightness, transported I rise
To meet Him in clouds of the sky,
His perfect salvation, His wonderful love
I’ll shout with the millions on high. [Refrain]

2009-06-25T22:51:00.003+08:00

Reminded.

Thank God for the day!! :)

I like squash haa it's similiar to Badminton. haa

But it's dangerous.. coz i got a smack. LOL

Thank God for closed friends who loved me. ("v")

2009-06-24T11:07:00.001+08:00

Praise God!!!! :D

Good Results~!!! WHeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-06-22T21:48:00.003+08:00

U understand not wad it means but wad it means more to U.
That is all, isn't it. :/ well.

hmm.. had a fun week.. from last friday till today. :)

Went to Night Safari on Friday with Rachel, Jaime & Jolynn :)

Went to Farmart with Sharon & Eugenia today :)

Argh.. Holiday is ending soon.

I hear the lion roaring. "Sians".

Now H1N1.. i think we need to wear a mask to work..

might get rash from it coz it's really tight. Preparing..

Weds... I dun really long for it to come.. but well.

God's will be done. :) He deems what is best for me.

2009-06-18T18:55:00.002+08:00

Recently, have just been watching video :)

The week have been good. ^^

당신에게, 나는 밖으로 뽑는 일 필요가 있는 잡초인가?
나가 떠날 것이라는 점을 다만 저에게 말하십시오.

2009-06-10T16:31:00.002+08:00

Open the eyes of my Heart Lord. I want to see you.

The B.I.B.L.E. Yes that's the book for me.
I stand alone on the word of God.
The B.I.B.L.E :)

God's word is one Christian basis.
"Call unto me and I will shew thee great and mighty things which thou knowest not."
Jeremiah 33:3
He really does. If u earnestly seek and dig for the truth.
The truth shall surely set u free.

I'm glad to have learnt more about being humble and not be discourage when we serve the Lord and the faith of our forefathers which they did not rely on circumstances but on their childlike faith in God.
Couple of books & chapters: Hebrews 11, 2 Timothy 2, 1 Timothy 1-6, 1 Corinthians 14 and Galatians 6.

All this studies really open my eyes and God had answer me with a conclusion:

"But God forbid that I should glory, save in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by whom the world is crucified unto me, and I unto the world." Galatians 6: 14

"From henceforth let no man trouble me: for I bear in my body the marks of Lord Jesus." Galatians 6:17.

God is good all the time.
He is and always will be. :) Amen.

2009-06-09T22:27:00.004+08:00

I've nv been to IMM 4 times in a row before.
I'm seriously SIANz of it already.
but i cant promise i wont go there anymore.
goodness.
Alrites..
Holiday been good.. been tiring too.
I'm still in need of a rest.
___________________________________. :)

Just some thts.
* ignore it if u think it's not applicable to u.
Well.. so many changes in life.
U see different kind of people.
There are different kind of people.
You've got to learn to live with it.
Like wad my friend said in her blog.
Humans can be sarcastic, humans can be ignorant at times.
Humans can be selfish, humans can be ungrateful at times too.
e.t.c. They can ruin u even at times.
oh well at the end of the day.. u noe in ur heart who cares for u.
Sincerely.
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Help me Lord, I 'm not in any position to judge.
Contentment. Tis is wad i wan.

2009-06-08T14:35:00.002+08:00

Haa.. exam result's is not going to be release on 12 June.. it's 24 June.
Wheee!!

U will never know how it feels like to be _________.

2009-06-05T23:26:00.002+08:00

Woo Hoo. :)

Today I watch Ramen Girl at home.. SO NICE till i cry!! LOL.. :) Very touching lo. :) Only ppl like me then will be so emotional. nvm.. haa. but i'm jasmine ma.. HAA the movie very interesting.. one duck and one chicken talking and learning how to cook Ramen and one passing his skills to her. LOL. The japanese guy whom she met after the Ethan is cool and nice looking! ^^ and ya.. the ingredient tt u must add when u r cooking is love :)

Alrites.. have a fun bday celebration for Pat today! Hope she like it.. LOL :) Sheena joined us today, so nice to meet again! :)

2009-06-04T15:50:00.003+08:00

We are not thru.

Ytd night.. I watched this movie called Quarantine. It's plot is almost similar like unto another movie acted by Will smith. It is about a reporter and her camera man when to interview the fire man in the firestation and was called at midnight because there was this woman who is bleeding inside her apartment and was screaming. Was quite gross. Then after a vet in the building found out tt the signs and symptoms are similar to Rabies a fatal animal bite disease that cannot be cure. And the adventure starts. When human was bitten by the infectious dog and turned mad and started to bite one another. Although the plot is quite boring because everyone is expected to die in that sealed building but the show was too gross and a little scary! [maybe becoz it's already night time at home] I had tachycardia after watching it. Cant sleep.

However, this movie reminded me of H1N1. haa although u noe I claim tt it doesn't really bother me. But now, it does abit. and seeing the cockroach coming out from the hole at my kitchen.. makes me wonder what if the next time e cockroach will be the next to spread the disease. Wa so scarry. Plus.. Now I'm going to IMH.. Dunno how is it like. and what is it going to be like. After the movie ytd and all the imaginative ride. I asked God for peace amongst this fear and I thank God that if I die because of all this.. I will be in heaven.

Thank God for Prayer meeting yesterday.. and a timely msg and reminder from Dn Jonathan Teo about assurance of salvation , blessings from God that he will never forsake us, responsibility to take actions for what we say.

I bet most of them are enjoying in church camp now.. and they will be back tml! haa ;)

Oh ya.. Thank God for my 19th Birthday..

Thanks to those who remember and had wished me. My Class JR0804D & Ms Sanjit.
[Haa not going to name all.. but u know if u had wished me. I still remember] ^^.

Thanks to Da Jie for treating me to Fish and Co. and ur lovely handmade notebook and little Miss Sunshine :D

Thanks for e mini surprise celebration prepared by my sisters [ Jaime, Rachel Yvonne] and those who took time to celebrate for me. :) and the lovely gift [Whee it's school bag!] that they bought for me haa. ^^

Thank my two beloved Sister a.k.a sun nuer [Patricia & Jin Li] for the wall frame ;) Very cute and lovely! :D

Thanks to Gwyneth, Jocelyn and Shelia for the pretty bag :) haa I will use it! :D

Thank You Shelia!! :) Today i'm going to have dinner with you! :)

Thanks to Hui Ee for buying me a watch, very nice and it suits me well! ^^

Thank God for my family who took time to come back and celebrate for me, the present and birthday cake. :D

I appreciate it all. I thank God for my family and friends that God has placed them in my life to bring joy, laughter, encouragement and advice e.t.c.

Well.. God is definitely my Jehovah Jireh.. :) I love Him.

That's all :)

2009-06-02T20:56:00.002+08:00

As age catch up, certain things doesn't matter anymore.

WHeeee!!!! Officially announce it's holiday for me! Thank God for exams :) Not too bad!
Oh ya and dun remind me.. results will be out next week. SO FAST!

Arghh... my CP teacher is HER!!!! I'm going to "faint".
'm so going to be so tensed up and stress up la! Help me.
All thanks to them who has helped us earn this privilege to have her.. "Sigh"
Nvm.. m going to try to love my day with her. Try not to provoke her and do my best.
And wheee I get to go IMH & KK hospital coming posting.. It will definitely be a good experience.. I hope
and yes goodbye to my beloved sleep coz travelling will take the most of it. :/
Well.. I got to cope with it.

2009-05-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

Where would you go after you die?

It would be a long post.. but if you think is boring and long.. then well you may just like to tolerate my long post [REN] and read through. Please!!! Thank You! Xie Xie! Terimah Kahsei! Kum Xia ler! ^^

As requested by Sharon.. haa today we had a very interesting discussion. And we came to a same conclusion that normally how we intro ourselves and what is the typical response of others.

New Friend: What are you studying?
3 of us: Nursing.
New Friend: Which Poly ar?
3 of us: No not Poly, i'm studying at ITE Simei.
New Friend: [Pause] Oh okay.
End of conversation.

Not trying to imply anything.. haa it's just how we know what others would response if we were to introduce ourselves.

Today.. yet another cool and inspiring story told by my section head.
If tonight you were going to develop shortness of breath or an attack in the hospital or other place e.g. home or shopping centre.
Would you really bother who will come and attend to you?
Will you be requesting a Staff nurse or even Doctor to come and attend to you when you are in pain?
Would you bother whether the person is a Staff Nurse or Assistant Nurse or Doctor?
I don't think so. It all matter when the person is able to meet your needs at that point of time.
So why the label? Think about it.

Nice and Encouraging.

During lunch time today an accident happened outside my school. A taxi crash into a motorbike and the motorbike flew up onto the cab roof and the impact was so great that it caused the cab roof to have a big bump. Reminder: Life has no rehearsal. God can take and give a life.

H1N1.. although it didn't hit me hard. but thank God for Da Jie to remind me that there are many more people out there who are not saved. The prophecies of the bible are coming true. Jesus is coming soon. Believe it anot. If you have time read this part of the scripture treat it seriously and think about your life. And another reminder that is what if one day you find people or your love one go missing and you are left behind to clear and welcome messed and destruction. What will your reaction be?

Matthew 24
Signs of the close of age

1And Jesus went out, and departed from the temple: and his disciples came to him for to shew him the buildings of the temple.

2And Jesus said unto them, See ye not all these things? verily I say unto you, There shall not be left here one stone upon another, that shall not be thrown down.

3And as he sat upon the mount of Olives, the disciples came unto him privately, saying, Tell us, when shall these things be? and what shall be the sign of thy coming, and of the end of the world?

4And Jesus answered and said unto them, Take heed that no man deceive you.

5For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.

6And ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars: see that ye be not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.

7For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.

8All these are the beginning of sorrows.

9Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake.

10And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.

11And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many.

12And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

13But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.

14And this gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in all the world for a witness unto all nations; and then shall the end come.

15When ye therefore shall see the abomination of desolation, spoken of by Daniel the prophet, stand in the holy place, (whoso readeth, let him understand:)

16Then let them which be in Judaea flee into the mountains:

17Let him which is on the housetop not come down to take any thing out of his house:

18Neither let him which is in the field return back to take his clothes.

19And woe unto them that are with child, and to them that give suck in those days!

20But pray ye that your flight be not in the winter, neither on the sabbath day:

21For then shall be great tribulation, such as was not since the beginning of the world to this time, no, nor ever shall be.

22And except those days should be shortened, there should no flesh be saved: but for the elect's sake those days shall be shortened.

23Then if any man shall say unto you, Lo, here is Christ, or there; believe it not.

24For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect.

25Behold, I have told you before.

26Wherefore if they shall say unto you, Behold, he is in the desert; go not forth: behold, he is in the secret chambers; believe it not.

27For as the lightning cometh out of the east, and shineth even unto the west; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.

28For wheresoever the carcase is, there will the eagles be gathered together.

29Immediately after the tribulation of those days shall the sun be darkened, and the moon shall not give her light, and the stars shall fall from heaven, and the powers of the heavens shall be shaken:

30And then shall appear the sign of the Son of man in heaven: and then shall all the tribes of the earth mourn, and they shall see the Son of man coming in the clouds of heaven with power and great glory.

31And he shall send his angels with a great sound of a trumpet, and they shall gather together his elect from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other.

32Now learn a parable of the fig tree; When his branch is yet tender, and putteth forth leaves, ye know that summer is nigh:

33So likewise ye, when ye shall see all these things, know that it is near, even at the doors.

34Verily I say unto you, This generation shall not pass, till all these things be fulfilled.

35Heaven and earth shall pass away, but my words shall not pass away.

36But of that day and hour knoweth no man, no, not the angels of heaven, but my Father only.

37But as the days of Noah were, so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.

38For as in the days that were before the flood they were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, until the day that Noe entered into the ark,

39And knew not until the flood came, and took them all away; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.

40Then shall two be in the field; the one shall be taken, and the other left.

41Two women shall be grinding at the mill; the one shall be taken, and the other left.

42Watch therefore: for ye know not what hour your Lord doth come.

43But know this, that if the goodman of the house had known in what watch the thief would come, he would have watched, and would not have suffered his house to be broken up.

44Therefore be ye also ready: for in such an hour as ye think not the Son of man cometh.

45Who then is a faithful and wise servant, whom his lord hath made ruler over his household, to give them meat in due season?

46Blessed is that servant, whom his lord when he cometh shall find so doing.

47Verily I say unto you, That he shall make him ruler over all his goods.

48But and if that evil servant shall say in his heart, My lord delayeth his coming;

49And shall begin to smite his fellowservants, and to eat and drink with the drunken;

50The lord of that servant shall come in a day when he looketh not for him, and in an hour that he is not aware of,

51And shall cut him asunder, and appoint him his portion with the hypocrites: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

What a wonderful assurance that Jesus is coming again very soon.

Thank God for being able to go prayer meeting today. Reminder from the book of Job again. Is anything to hard for the Lord? I know I have been short tempered, Whining, complaining, negative in all my conversations, abit rude with people and just merely no mood and restless I'm just so sorry to all the people whom I may have unknowingly offended. I know this is not Christlikeness. Guess rest is the answer to all this. Very tired, but i have to endure another 5 more days! God is Jehovah Jireh my provider, He granted me guidance and wisdom. He never forsake me and He gave me beyond what I can bear. Thank God!

Someone recently just shared with me that: "Please never be mistaken of this verse 1 corinthians 10:13 that God will always give you beyond what you can bear. Check your walk with God and you may find that something that you been holding on may be the cause that hinders you away from God. Don't blame God when He don't answer your prayer. Check your motives and whether is there a sin that you still have not confess. Pride is what God hates.

Please God teach me to walk humbly and to be imitator of you.

Alrite.. Goodnite!

2009-05-21T20:59:00.005+08:00

I guess my decision was correct, somehow.
Mei You Qian Gua le ba.

Finally.. all my tests are over!!!
Praise God! and and.. Thank God for good results one by one.
Only by His Grace and strength that I manage to do well.
Now waiting for the last results. gosh! I found out I lost 2 marks alr. haa

Next, PROJECTS.. FINALLY OVER!!!
WHee.. actually not really.. still have to collate and type report. Sians but nvm.
However all this reminds me that exams are coming and another round of attachment.
Thank God for helping me to go through year 2.1 smoothly.
This coming attachment would be an eye opening one for me.. so looking forward to it.

Wa.. This days i really cant stand some foreigners who drive our public bus man!
They have no sense of urgency. Like te whole world goes according to his timing.
Can u imagine taking a super long time to reach the interchange which i normally only take 10-15 mins to reach.
I get super irrtated when the driver try to squeeze when there is no space in the bus already. Ridiculous!
It's quite irritating when they don't understand what you talking about. Duck and chicken yaking.
It's not the first time. it's like the second time already.. i really cant stand it anymore.
The driver took 35 mins just to reach the int. what a big joke man! But it's not, literally made my blood pressure rised up!
Nowadays people are really getting lazier and lazier. No wonder service in sg has dropped drastically.
We deserved it lo. Want things the easy way out. This kind of ppl just makes my day starts bad! Thank God i wasn't late for test today.

Indeed ppl like me so aunty and kiasu.. early the morning i'm the ugliest [not only me, there are alot like me], coz i will get my means and strategy to get a sit in the MRT. However, times it fails and times it passed :) Esp, now the line extended to Joo koon. Try carrying a tabbner and stand all the way almost everyday for 45 mins. I definitely not going to hit the side cabins where all the sch kids and lians and bengs are there. Sometime u just get into unknown trouble and u cant sleep in peace. Haa did i mention i overslept in the train on the way back to JE int. So weird when it was so empty and quiet and the next thing I noe is that I'm on my way to Lakeside. LOL too tired alr? I turn back and sat back to JE int and take a bus home.. Irritating bus. Arghh!!

Nafa is over too. Thank God.. nv had such digusting feeling in my life. We ran 2.4 oops 1.6 i meant [ coz teacher gave a good discount] and I Nearly fainted coz i act smart by sprinting the last 100m, wasn't prepare for it, but somehow i just gave it a go., got into a hypo estate and wanted so much to vomit thank God for H-Two-O that reminded me of what Lydia described it as miracle drink. It really helps. Now my body aches like anything.. my heels had some traumatic experience after the standing broad jump. Now it feels like i'm stepping on large stones wherever i go and i'm walking small steps like I have parkinson. lol. Everything seems it is like going against time. Coz we only left with one more sch week. Very fast indeed. I'm happy with what I scored. Now left with incline pull up.. :) My favourite!

Holidays coming soon!!! Whee.. but well everybody is not in sg.. well i spent time sleeping and staying at home then. Now with a DVD player whee.. I dun mind just watching movies at home everyday. :) I can meet up with my beloved sisters too! :) Altho it's really a pity that i cant go church camp this yr. Well.. it's okie la at least i got to go for 4 yrs alr. :) This yr or term altho i'm not really very active in church activities like prayer meetings, monday percepts and church camp. Well it fufills my 2009 resolution which is to spend more time at home.
God knows when is the right timing for everything that happens. Like i said, i need some form of mental rest from so many commitments not that i really wish to minus it off but well I think it's good to have a focus. God is still good to me. Definitely if i can go back, i will sure want to go back to prayer meetins, precepts if i can.

Lastly, there are nice doctors in sg like this one. He wasn't paid to give us a lecture on Head injury last monday. How nice!

Dr Keith Goh is a neurosurgeon who treats adults, especially children, with brain, spinal cord and nerve conditions. He returned to Singapore from Hong Kong where he was Associate Professor of Neurosurgery at the Chinese University of Hong Kong. Prior to this, Dr Goh was the Consultant Neurosurgeon at Singapore General Hospital and Raffles Hospital.

Dr Goh is best known for leading an international medical and surgical team that was the first to attempt the separation of adult conjoined twins in 2003. Dr Goh has also led similar surgical teams in separating two other sets of conjoined twins, one set joined at the head (2001) and the other, at the spine (2003). These were the first surgeries on such cases in Singapore, and both had successful outcomes.
In addition to the practice of Neurosurgery, Dr Goh has contributed extensively to teaching and research. He has written over 50 published articles and book chapters, involved in continued research with the Chinese University, and taught part-time in the enrolled nursing course at ITE College East, Singapore. In addition, Dr Goh is presently Chairman of the Board of Directors of the Make-A-Wish Foundation (Singapore).

I respect and regconise such nice people.. :) It's a blessing. and Thank God I got to make Him something and present it as a class gift ;)

Alrites I'm happie :) gd nite then everyone.

2009-05-16T23:50:00.002+08:00

Making choices you won't regret.
Am I? I'm starting to be uncertain again. /:
Pls God enlighten me.

2009-05-15T23:27:00.003+08:00

What do you wan of my expressions?

Wah Seh!!!

Today was an enjoyable day in the Social etiquette class! :)
This man has charisma and he is very good because he injected humour and constructive feedback to each and individual of our grooming and body posture. Even I was taught how to dress and present myself during an interview. We even learn how to spray perfume at the correct points, correct proper hand shake [even how to deal with those who think they are so high up there] cool!, smile correctly, walk correctly and know our face shape to suit a hairstyle that will give you a oval shape imaginery look. Really opened my eyes to someone very professional like him. Certainly it will benefit me in the long run. It is very applicable. Thank God, it's good! I think with this skills it helps me in being able to potray myself in a social events.

He is:

Joshua Luke

Joshua Luke, the Chief Image Consultant & Chief Executive Coach has been conducting numerous corporate & personal image presentations, personal grooming and business & social etiquette courses since 1997.

He is the winner & titleholder of ‘Mr. Singapore 1999/ 2000’ competition & ‘NUS ManHunt 1997/ 1998’ competition. Apart from winning both titles, Coach Luke, as he is fondly known as by his participants, has also clinched the subsidiary "Mr. Personality" Awards for both competitions!

Coach Luke started modeling in his teenage years. Furthermore, throughout his reign as ‘Mr. Singapore 1999/ 2000’ & ‘NUS ManHunt 1997/ 1998’ Winner, he has had undergone extensive training in image grooming, deportment and etiquette.

Ever since the ‘Mr. Singapore’ title, Luke has been invited to attend important functions and charity events as an honourable ambassador of Singapore. He has also helped groom & chief-/ judge countless beauty pageants including the Miss Singapore World, Miss Singapore International, Mr. & Miss Singapore Vogue, Miss Freshkon Singapore, Mr. & Miss NUS, King & Queen of NTU Halls & NTU and Mr. Saints Hunt competitions, and several other beauty pageants.

A popular Ambassador, Coach Luke has several ‘Official Ambassadorship’ to his name. Some ambassadorships include ‘Mr. Freshkon Singapore Official Ambassador’, ‘Mr. EyePlay Singapore Official Ambassador’, ‘Mr. Butyshop Singapore Official Ambassador’, etc.

He has also been chosen as ‘Top 30 Men We Love’ in a leading female Chinese magazine & Top 8 ‘Hunkiest Husband’ in a leading female English magazine. On the media forefront, Coach Luke has been interviewed over Mediacorp ‘NewsRadio 938’ with Miss Singapore Universe 2006 & re- broadcast over ‘Channel News Asia’. He is also the image consultant- speaker for the first- ever ‘National Singles & Dating Seminar- Conference Exhibition’ In Singapore, speaking alongside world- renowned Body Language Expert, Mr. Allan Pease.

He has also been featured in an interview in an upcoming men’s magazine & has contributed several image grooming articles. Coach Luke’s wealth of knowledge on image grooming, presentation & etiquette spans from undergoing training & precious experiences that he had personally gone through while representing Singapore as Her Ambassador.

His understanding of image presentation and personal grooming is not merely theoretical but also very much experiential. His workshops are filled not just with valuable contents but also personal insights into the image industry that is more localized & personal to the culture & context of the Asians. Moreover, along with his great personality & humourous disposition, Coach Luke’s workshops are often highly enjoyable, yet deeply insightful. He has also conducted public seminars & has been invited to Malaysia & Indonesia to conduct workshops for corporate & social organizations.

Other then that.. wheee this coming monday lecture a Neuro Doctor will be giving us lecture on Neurology. I'm looking forward to it. :) Arggghh.. PM slides to complete!

2009-05-14T22:28:00.003+08:00

Wheee!!!

Our Bus-Stop model is DONE!!!!!!!!!!

minutes and report left!

Thank God for some reliable group mates to work with me.

Individually we are gifted in different areas. :)

Thank You Sharon and Eugenia!

Sometimes i'm in a dilemma of being nice and bad in situations that are inevitable.

I cant be Ms nicey everyday.

Teach me how not to be taken advantage off.. :/

Some people really think I'm childish at mind or maybe on the surface.

Sorry! I may not be what you may think I am. ^^

I've learnt the hard way and come this far.

Do you think i'm really stupid outside. Pls.

Try me. but you won't get me.

I don't want to be any hypocrite either.

Sometimes. Ppl think they are really proud up there.

They don't think what state they are in themselves to say others.

I've enough that's why i want to say.

You can say I've changed to be a little be more wary of people around me.

If you don't understand who I am.. Dont judge me for who I may be to you.

Please don't take my sincereity to test. I'm true.

I hope you are too.

I'm serious.

2009-05-13T21:18:00.005+08:00

Talk to me again.

Project are almost done..
Thank God.
now left with Project Management.
Oh Ya.. Ytd during Geron lessons, Mdm Yeo Showed us Singapore Poly winning clip on Dementia titled: " Going Home"
Super touching can, I teared!!
You can search on Youtube if you want to see.
Hopefully they have it online.

Next week another Bio test on Nervous system.
Thank God it's not on Monday. "Phew!"

School is good, Thank God for my results.
It was by God's grace that I could do well.
Although I should not have deserved it.
Shouldn't take it for granted.
No more hints now.. :(
Because ppl didn't study for the rest of the topic.
Causes so many to fail in MCQs. Grr.
I love MCQs. what's more one qn is worth 2 marks.

More or less I might be going to Malacca for attachment during October.
If I am.. I'm going to brush up on my malayu.
This friday I got a social etiquette workshop.
Wonder how is it going to be. I hope it's very useful.
Thank God Eugenia is going with me :)
coz she also applied to go to Malacca with me.

Was rather feeling a little bit more relax this week.
Time flies pretty fast..
Another 1 more week i'm turning 19 yrs old.
another 3 more weeks is exams. LOL
another 4 more weeks is Holidays and YAYness!!!
My long awaited time will be coming soon! :D
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! haa :x

Now my life is revolving in school and school.
So I've nothing much to update about my life.
Thank God for sustaining and
Keeping my health in good shape.
Why I say this?
Coz i've been contact with so many friends who is not feeling well.

Thank God for Mother's day :)
My Sis, brother in law, brother and sister in law and Declan came :)
Even though I'm not the mother of Declan, But as you watch ur naphew growing up.
The feeling is undescribable.
It reminded me of how God wants us to have a childlike faith in Him.
Because all children are dependable on their parents.

God is just so good. I thank God for my salvation once again.
It gave me so much assurance :)
I thank God for Ruth whom I'm discipling now.
It's encouraging to see her willingness to want to learn more about God. :)
I pray that this girl will be moulded by God into a young lady after God's own heart. :)

Well, recently things and times changed.
This is the stage where most of us would be struggling.
Only God knows what we are struggling at.

Life?
Are we here on earth to stay only?
That would be so sad.

Heaven and hell?
Is it just another cook up story?
I bet not.

Soul or conscious?
If you love someone. U have both.

Cells?
Everything must have a maker to create this tiny cells.

The world?
They mocked and persecute christians.
I bet every 5 second one people get persecuted for their faith.

When my teacher showed a slideshow on pencil today.
It acknowledges that there is a God who is the maker and has a plan and purpose for everything.
I was actually sleeping and forcing my eyes to open everytime each slide changes.
Thank God at least It's something powerful to make some to think and search for this maker.

Well.. Pray that God will move some of those that I hold dear to my heart to realise how God love them so much.
We all know what is it like to wait for someone so long even if it's just half an hour.
But God wait for us even to the point of our last breath.
He is patiently waiting.
Search the scriptures, you will find the truth.
Ask God to grant you wisdom
Don't skip this part.
It just moved me to blog about this.
What I see in school and all.

Lastly, I gt this very nice, but fierce teacher who asked us to copy down sth which i find it interestingly -_-""" today :)

"Said also don't listen.

Listen also don't understand.

Don't understand also don't ask.

Ask also don't do.

Do also do wrong.

Wrong also don't admit.

Admit also don't correct.

Correct also not happy.

Not happy also don't say."

HAHA!! So true. Isn't it interesting?

2009-05-11T22:49:00.002+08:00

All this will be almost done.

A Time for everything..

2009-05-04T22:38:00.004+08:00

I have found relieved in Jesus :) I am resolved, no longer to linger.

This is the 4rd week that i'm in school.
3 more weeks? or 2.
My exams are nearing..
but now.. it's still echoes "Projects.. Projects.. Projects...
Having another test next week..
I'm tired! I want to rest.

Hopefully I will remember not to depend on my own strength! I'm weak and I need God.

Swine flu seems to worsen.. well be prepared everyone we are living in the last days.
Second coming of Jesus is very near, we dun no when. Maybe today or tml my Lord will come again. Yes, work hard for God spread the gospel!

I hate conflicts and i dun understand why people have so much time for that. What's with grudges, what's with hatred, what's with evil and malice, what's with hypocrites, what's with being so superficial, what's with labelling, what's with jealousy and envying, what's with people? When all they complaint, fight and argue for peace and unity. This is so contridicting. Esp. if you are serving the Lord and are called to be salt and light and be imitators as God, why then should we put on a mask and treat only who we want to treat nicely and all. Why people must stumble one another.. What gain can we get? Heaven or hell.. Crowns or ashes. God is so clear and precised.. Why does people always misunderstood His words? But i'm just reminded amidst of all this, God is still in control.. He has his ways and because all this must come to pass. Just pray that He will guide me and help me not to be distracted by all this nonsense that I'm seeing now in this world. I feel disgusted.. but God still love all of this people. It was His death and ressurection that overcomes all. Can satan demonstrate agape love for mankind? NO.

Abba Father let me be, yours and yours alone.
Never let my heart grow cold, never let me go.

His Love is warmer than the warmest sunshine, softer than a sigh.
His love is deeper than the deepest ocean, wider than the sky. :)
P.S: I Love Him. :)

2009-05-01T23:20:00.002+08:00

What is genuine to you? It meant alot to me.

Another week has passed. Finally! :)
Was tough and super duper tired till the brink.
However I got my rest today.
Thank God Bio test over!
Well it was really kinda last minute thing again.
But well God knows best why.
He still kept me and bless me with some sort of an easy paper.
My schedule is really tight.
I feel tt it's building up :/
Instead of having a day ending at 6pm now it's two. like LO.
Monday is another test.
Wednesday is another test.
Friday Geron project due date!!
It's almost done thank God.
I hate Project management.
Teacher asked to do a 3D model of a bus stop for him.
all the minutes and all. grr.
Have to handle it no matter what.
Who says ITE is so easy after all. not so actually.
Well... NUH didn't call back i guess they gave up on my application alr.
I'm fine coz i dun wan to wait for their reply for 4 mths. Not worth at all.
Still deciding whether to go for Myammar trip. cox of the swine flu.

Me+School = Friends. which is good.

I cant help but say..

Sometimes ppl are just too much and insensible.
Being nice isn't really a good thing after all.
ppl think that u're just a fool or having some other ulterior motives.
Oh please.
whether to be angry or to be upset.
Just got to learn to be quiet or smile it off if they hurt u with any comments.
ppl just dun understand ppl.

2009-04-25T23:02:00.003+08:00

Yayness!! I've passed my IV Therapy practical test. Marks e end of my practical test. Thank God! It's so scarry how God places people around your sight repeatedly.Why? Coz my Practical test, the teacher who tested me was the one whom I will always see at the MRT station bus stop and she was actually the one who irrtated me somehow because of 2 incidents. I kept saying that this teacher is very fierce and I dun really like her. :X Thank God I did not show her my unhappiness because of the 2 incidents. I was wronged when she tested me.. she was one of the nicest teacher "behind the cold blue door". Although didn't like it when she pressured me too much but Thank God she say I've done well Overall. That was a assurance. :) I dont expect high grades but at least I thank God the worst is over. :)

This week was rather tiring too... I wished that now as my practical test is done, I can concentrate on my other subject test coming up and 2 projects to complete.. Grr. No news from NUH. well God's will be done. Oh ya.. I probably am deciding to go my school Myammar trip to the village which was hit by Cyclone. More exposure and it is a 14 days trip. Why more exposure? it is because the team will be going there to set up a open air clinic to dress those villagers that has been affected by it, their wounds and all etc. can put whatever I've learnt in school into practice. Cool.. I just feel like being there. But I have to seek God's approval first and to see if he agrees to let me go. if not I will apply for Malacca trip. God Please Help me!

was just thinking..
I made alot of wrong choices. One of which is that Now I find no belonging in it anymore. It will never be the same already.

2009-04-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

PASS ME NOT

Pass me not, O gentle Savior,
Hear my humble cry;
While on others Thou art calling,
Do not pass me by.

Refrain:
(I'm calling)Savior, Savior,
(Why don't you)Hear my humble cry;
While on others Thou art calling,
Do not pass me by.

Let me at Thy throne of mercy
Find a sweet relief,
Kneeling there in deep contrition;
Help my unbelief.
Refrain

Trusting only in Thy merit,
Would I seek Thy face;
Heal my wounded, broken spirit,
Save me by Thy grace.
Refrain

Thou the Spring of all my comfort,
More than life to me,
Whom have I on earth beside Thee?
Whom in heav'n but Thee?
Refrain

Having practical test this sat.. praying and trusting tt my Lord will see me through.
Thank God for a good week so far. Today got a talk by teacher who is in charged of Student development.. Well.. I forsee my days might be busy being involving myself in school activities.. Sadly I dun stand a high chance to go for Australia trip but well it's okie :) God's will at least i still got to sign up for the malacca trip in August- Sept to their hospital. I think it's going to be great! I dunno but well no harm applying. Oh no.. with this passport [ GPA] I'm called to be involve as much as i could. esp I hate it when my sch is so far. I really dun mind if my sch is near. GRR.. I got so much more commitment. What to do Lord?

Secondly, my application for NUH is accepted and i've been informed that I've been shortlisted.. But then my timing is not tally with theirs because they only do interviews on weekdays afternoon. Oh well if it be God's will she call me back again. I really dunno whether I want to continue also as i was also offered another Bursary + dunno whether I will get through the NUH bursary heard I need to wait for 4 mths to get a reply LOL is it true? I dunno. WOOH.. SO much to think.. -_-""" Step by step then. slowly.. But I thank God for all this rewards that I think I won't be able to get it if I dun have His help.

God please guide me each day.. Now as things piling up on me... I really need to draw strength from Him :D God please help me to put aside all worries and trust in you be in control fully. :)

2009-04-19T17:31:00.005+08:00

This week was rather okie.. Fall sick the second time due to lack of sleep.
Had flu.. Real bad one but not as bad as wad i had during my attachment, at least the skin of my nose did not dried up and peel. Well, it was good because it kept me wide awake. I rather be sick again. haa
School started.. I could say there is alot to study, and i have no choice but to cut down what I've committed earlier on. If not I won't even have time to breathe. Seriously.. I think it won't make a difference. But well, I'm sure God will understand my comings. Teachers are great! I'm starting to appreciate my Bio teacher teaching. I wouldn't say i have no choice, but because i think she really makes alot of effort because u can see her running up and down to hunt for those who missed her class or needs help, she is ever ready to make time and give her best. Which btw not many teacher have this quality. I am slowly moved.

I thank God also for my Class CA's from 1.1 till now. God has been gracious and He really knows what's best for the class. I must say God has blessed me with such wonderful teacher who is so willing to help us out by staying back or arranging extra class with us and want us to give our best. Indeed, Nurses really are trained to have patience. xD I thank God for my Year one overall results. :D God is gracious and merciful. I don't deserve. I thank God that I've got a bursary. haha my head of nursing is interesting when he shared the song I will survived. Oh yes.. On that same evening when I am in a lift with a girl.. The song "I will survived" was playing in her MP3 with the volume that could be heard so clearly when we are in the lift. She was humming it too.. haha interesting. YEA.. got to learn how to survive the last 2 laps. I want to apply for the Austraila trip to Melbourne nursing school. It's tough. But I must overcome my fear of the unknown first. Very uncertain to apply coz i'm scared. haa. Well see how it goes.

I've been on a emotional ride too till since dunno when.. Too much things has been running in and out of my mind, got some degree of insomnia. Things unexpectedly keeps on distracting me and i'm really angry with myself [not because of unblock goals]. Although i really dun wished to spell it all out here. I just cant concentrate and cant help to keep thinking about it. What runs through my mind now is what my friend asked my teacher: Why is this world unfair? haa and my teacher replied: The world is never fair. Yup that's true. Definitely I've seek and cried out to God. It's true that when men are facing with problems the 3 questions that they will ask is : WHY me? WHY this? WHY now?.. it's just the WHY questions. Is it?

Identity crisis?
We all have to faced it one day. Probably I may be facing this problem. It's normal. I'm finding myself, changing myself and struggling to "shut up" . Appeasing others is not my forte, I please God not man. I'm changing for Him.

Worn-out? suffering a burn-out?
Maybe.. All of a sudden I just don't feel like being friendly, active or even you could say be bothered about other people matter. I just lost all interest and I'm just entitling myself to solitude moments. And yes.. I definitely can keep quiet even just for an hour, my presence to some are ignored anyway. I sure can, it depends whether I want it anot. Maybe i'm just thinking too much.. my close friends would understand why. Christian do have a right to be or get upset.. Yes and I did pray to God to guide me. I'm just back to Sec one learning how to smile because a teacher told me I looked fierce when i don't smile.

Without the Highs and the lows, Where would we go?

I'm rejoicing in God through all this problem.. Not that I need to show it. I'm reassured by hymns and verses that I have saved in my HP and took out to listen and meditate on those words. It's good to be able to turn to somebody when you are upset.

I'm growing stronger by God's help, to help mould me into who He wants me to be. I'm adjusting and slowly standing up again. I need time. Trying to be superficial is not me. But I admit I was sometime ago. I doubt humans, I doubt sincerity of others, I doubt no one understand, I doubt myself. But i DID NOT doubt God's capabilities. But through all this I was strengthened by God even more.

Repressing everything is not the way to solve any problems too. Till today, I am still not honest with my sharing. That's my own rights anyway. If I were to tell it all. You have tt thinking too. What if people think otherwise of you after you share? I dun wan to spoil relationships. I have my own bunch of sturggles, that' between me an God.

I'm done with all the Rarr Rarr. pls don't jump into conclusions, when u dun noe anything. I'm learning how to also. Not that i'm perfect. I'm not, so are you.

Yes, A rest is needed. Not sleep but mind off from all this nonsense that i'm thinking. I had a great laughed out loud ytd. It's been long I bet ppl heard me laughing so hard. I'm sorry if i would have embarrassed anyone. I don't like to be restricted when I need to vent it off. Pardon me.

It's tiring to be happy superficially sometimes. alrites no more.. another week of sch. I'm faced with many more challenges. I will look to God for strength and joy and it should not be found in men. "I know my Redeemer lives, and He shall stand at last on the earth and after my skin is destroyed, this I know, that in my flesh I shall see God, whom I shall see for myself, and my eyes shall behold, and not another. Job 19:2-27. This was what Job said when He was facing with many diversed situation ordered by God and testing that God allowed satan to tempt Him. His Grace is sufficient for me :) I'm covered by His great Love.

Give me time, to be back to who I am that God wants me to be. No cold shoulders pls , a smile to show that u understand my situations would be enough and appreciated if u see this post. I'm not here to gain pity.. In good or bad times Give Thanks. I dun wan my friends to know my happy moments only. Pls pray for me .. :D keep close to Him and be disciplined in all the things i need to do and complete. Thanks :D

A hymn that sent me peace and assurance when someone hurt me unknowingly on that faithful morning.

Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
O what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
I'm born of his Spirit, washed in his blood.

Refrain:
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long;
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long.

Perfect submission, perfect delight,
Visions of rapture now burst on my sight;
Angels descending bring from above
Echoes of mercy, whispers of love.(Refrain)

Perfect submission, all is at rest;
I in my Savior am happy and blest,
Watching and waiting, looking above,
I'm filled with God's goodness,
I'm lost in his love.(Refrain)

He reassured me with this song. His love is far greater than words can make known.

i'm not weird. I'm just me.

2009-04-10T14:04:00.040+08:00

Lydia's 21st Birthday Party-

YFer's & Lydia!! :)

Jaime, Gwyneth, Kimberly, Miie & Deborah!! ^^

Jaime & Miiee :D I really love this picture.. haa

Miie & Da Jie!!! :D

GCYF 48th Anniversary!!! :D

Outing to Vivo with Jane, Pat, Lay Hwa & Li Zhi :]

Ladies Small Grp :) Hamper tt' me & Jaime wrapped!

Project meeting with Sharon, Eugenia, Qi Yu, Yu Qi at Vivo :)

Hong Xin Ah Ma award!!

DEC DEC!!! :) My Naphew!

Declan!

My Cousin Wedding.

Outing With Pat, Jin Li, SC & Cindy! :D

La Mei Zi

Top One KTV :

Meet up with Tracy- IMM Swensens!! :D

Thanks Gal for buying me this at M'sia

and for remembering me :D so sweet of u!

I've enjoyed this meet up too :D

Holidays are ending in 3 more days. Sigh!! :/

This are the pictures taken when i'm out this 3 weeks.

I must say I enjoyed my time together with them, most of which are with my Dearest Sisters!! :)

Going back to school now makes me so sian but haa nvm, at least it's better then staying at home doing nothing. 2 more weeks i'm going to have another round of practical test, back to the cold blue room. LOL we all call it.

It's going to be busy for me, Sigh I've dropped out Precepts class and hopefully i got energy to go Prayer meeting.

I've just applied bursary with NUH, don't know how it would goes or whether I will be able to be called for an interview. I need to work extra hard for this last year. I want to get into Poly or maybe not. hmmm still wondering and praying about it. It's just funny, now in class I'm the only one who applied bursary with a hospital, actually I very much want to be a freebird. Oh well, sometimes circumstances just dont allow or maybe i'm just planning ahead.

Had a GREAT time with Jaime and Rachel Yesterday, although no pictures to capture the memories haa :) Had a fantastic meal at Streets ytd and Ice Cream in MACs. HAa and the long stroll to Church with some funnie incidents. I really enjoyed the time with u both, it's been such a long time. :D

This week we're going to commemorate Christ Resurrection!! :) Well, it really change my perspective after attending Precepts on Covenant. And after listening to Rev. Ong's sermon ytd night. I understand God's love for me even more.

Christ death on the cross,

defeat the Devil,

and once for all He died for all our sins

and the New covenant that He established gives us eternal life.

The promised of bring the redeemer to die for our sake.

We should rejoice!

Thank God for His death on the Cross and the promised that He said He will rise up on the third day which had been fufilled. And Most importantly the Salvation that I've Have in Him. :)

Alrite.. That's all for my updates. :)

I'm still a winner at a losing game. tt's true.

2009-04-10T01:06:00.002+08:00

Rascal Flatts- My Wish

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,
more then anything, more then anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
to your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but cha never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and you always give more then you take.

but More then anything, Yeah, and more then anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
to your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This song is to all my friends :D

2009-04-02T23:58:00.001+08:00

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken.

2009-03-31T22:10:00.002+08:00

3 weeks of holiday..

One week passed,
I met with so many different group of friends.
By now, I can tell you tat going out is tiring.
Need to get my butts down soon to study.
Project too. :/
Anyhow, I enjoyed myself.
God has been good :)

This coming week will be anor busy week.
It's already tues :/
Got the chance to stay at home and played the gospel
CD for my grandma to hear.
However, it gave way at track 8. grr.
At least she heard the first 7.
I pray that God will use this first 7 tracks to speak to her.
God, I finally got the couraged to do that by your Grace! :)

Well, thank God for sustaining her till now she is 82 this year.
And you know this is already God's grace to her and a privillege for my family to reach out to her.
we shall see. :)

2009-03-19T21:41:00.004+08:00

School Holidays are here. Finally.
Headaches after Bio class will be gone, for now.
Thank God, but still dunno why it comes and goes.
It must be the circles that my teacher have been playing. :/
Attachment + 2 weeks of sch = required beauty sleep.
Thank God for my Insulin practical test, All is well.
Got back my 1.1 attachment teacher to test me,
I'm so glad that i was reminded that God's way
is higher then mine and His thoughts are way higher then mine.
Probably, Because when I first saw my attachment teacher,
was in my mind that if I'm going to be tested by her,
she is strict and she knows my weakness. But i was Wrong.
God granted me His grace, I was confident and did not forget any steps accept for raising up the
bed and trembling when I had to deal with the needle.
Mock Bio test was not too bad, however mistakes could be avoided. Careless.
But It will not be counted in. Great, just be reminded not to make the same mistakes again.
Got back my results slip, a thought to count my blessings.
Through all this, I learnt that God is the one who can keeps promises.
He will not fail, He will not play with your heart.
His love is gentle, His voice is peaceable.
He answers with assurance,
His will we might not understand,
but in no time you see Him placing everything nicely up in front of your face.
He wants my total trust and dependence on Him. He has been good to me,
a source of strength when I'm weak,
being protected under the shadow of His wings.
I can ask for no more.
God is good, only if you could see like what I did.
Today was a rather eventful day, I went for my cousin's wedding solemnization and then I rush
home and rush to Church for YF. Thank God I was early :) Had Sing and Share today. It was
good.

Alrite shall stop here :)

2009-03-13T23:47:00.004+08:00

Today...

Was the most relaxing day and fair day for me haha! I slept for 11 and a half hrs man! :)
So lazy to go out but still I went out for awhile to meet Gwyn, and was in the bus heading home when I overheard a conversation.
"My girl is going to get it hard from me, her teacher call me and told me she has not been doing her homework for 3 times. another thing is that she spoilt the computer because it has been affected by virus. If the father is not going to do it, I make sure if i handle thisI will surely give it hard to her" WOoh..
Is this how nowadays the mummies will use this method to deal with the child first without finding out the caused of it. Poor girl. But seriously, nowadays i don't deny some people deal things without finding out the caused of it yet, including me. But definitely, i surely don't believe in using the hard method, if i'm the mother. Plus, People are getting irritated so easily nowadays that they deal with things hastily. I feel like telling the mother to think twice what she said. The girl is going to be more rebellion after that, I bet. Is there no room for making mistakes and learning from it?

Tomorrow my mum and dad is coming back from vietnam! So happy, I miss them. Hope they had a nice trip there. One more week to go! Yayness.

Jasmine thank God everyday for being her provider and sustainer. The one who loves and will not forsake His own. God is faithful. :)

2009-03-12T22:43:00.003+08:00

Year 2. Excited!!??

A new phase of learning in school.. as much as i'm excited to actually start my year 2 when sch reopen.. The introduction have already made my heart pounding fast [Hypertension] + S.O.B [Dypsnea] goodness! haha Didn't know the load is like twice heavy then year one. Even though I've just started, next week I will be having my practical test on insulin already.. and best it's on Mon and somemore the first class in the morning. -_-""" sweats. But definitely it's easier then NGT the last time. My Bio teacher is like "no comments" probably because there is a gap coz she is a foreigner. But thank God I am still able to understand her teaching. There are so much to study but not as much as some la.. many concepts and all the chimology science term. But well, i'm coping well by God's grace. There will be like a mock test next week on wednesday. Then when school reopens, my first week is like a chionging week.. after the first week subsequent weeks I will be having tests after test and IV practical test [ Scarry! I heard many had failed this test].

Will be learning alot of cool stuff this year. And will be learning Geron in 2.1 too. It's the studying of elderly. When i go for my 2.1 clinical attachment, will have 10 skills to complete and going to IMH!!!! haha my "third home" Deifinitely there will be projects to tie me down too. 7 weeks it seems short, but in fact it is long enough to do alot of things. Have to go through this by God's strength man. It's not easy. But I shall not give a verdict to it when I haven't even fight the battle.

However thank God that whatever i'm learning , is something that it's not boring. It's very nice to learn about God's creation. Human anatomy is so complex, How can we doubt that there is no creator who has made us and understand us inside, out. I'm sure there are many other things that a human body possess that not even humans like us could comprehend this complexity and can research out everything. No not one.

Another thing is that, I'm pretty or very sure that this is for me. So, I will put extra hard work into it even it takes alot of my brain juice and I hope to be able to go to Poly, grr now even poly is only considering 3.5.. -_-"".. it's very contridicting and confusing sometimes.. well life is never fair and square anyway. I just want to be a full pledge nurse. Haha as I learnt from my Teacher about the nurses life last time, it is almost like leading a life of a deaconess or a nun man. hahaha Really cool. :) anyway assisstant nurse or staff nurse.. I will need to study and learn life long, just like growing to become more like Christ is also a life long thing on earth, till u go to heaven with Him. So even if i go to poly anot, it is God's will, not mine.

Arghhh!!!!! one more week and HOLIDAYS!!! but it isnt exactly any holiday to me. I need to catch up and revise my work. Nvm.. I can catch my beauty sleep and catch up with friends. haha alrite updates about school till here.

Today went out with Aunty Yoke Siong, Rachel and Jaime :) We went to C.H.I.J.M.E.S cool place rite. My First time there too. Ate at a Japanese restaurant. Learnt that the place was actually old CHIJ sch. The place is so nice even the toilet is nice. haha I enjoyed my day of fellowship with them! The food is good, the qing tiao is there just that it's too dim to the eyes that made Rachel sleepy haa! :) It's been a long time since we go out already! Looking forward to another one man. :D

Tml is a off day for me.. and i learnt this phrase from my classmate : This whole week only Friday is fair to me" hahaha very true. Alrties man.. many things to accomplish tml. Till then will update again. :)

2009-03-06T23:20:00.002+08:00

WHeeee!!!...

Today is my last day for my year 1 posting.. The moment that i'm waiting for ^^
Working life is over from now till 3 mths, back to studying!
Although i prefer working...
I thank God for good results.. Results that reminded me that God has been faithful to me and that He has shown me the correct path . I thank God for such that God works in many ways that we don't understand but truely God is God, His thoughts is way higher than mine.
I'm really glad to meet all sorts of patients from all over sg e.g. a super lingual uncle, an uncle who is so thankful for everything [ my Mr cartoon!] I wonder how is he sigh! etc.
and it's been a joy to serve them individually.
I missed those that i've actually nursed them for nearly 3 weeks or so. Haha
God made everybody different and unique, didn't regret working with humans.
This posting had actually changed me to become a more talkative person, which i'm usually not.
Well and i must say, this posting in the cardiac ward altho it's not a very smooth sailing one, there were many times that we were quite upset with the way how some were treating us,
Again this phrase that teaches me: Treat others as how you want others to treat you.
Another thing was to make a teacher who worked so hard for us to cry.
Just why People think the way some didn't wan others to think.. That is why people look at you being labelled as an ITE students.
Working with humans like that is trying and tired, when they took your advice for granted, not compliant to all the rules that is set, not responsible and expecting something that they did not work hard for, making all sorts of scenes that really made me wonder why choose nursing.
Talking about professionalism.. save it.
I dont mean to say i'm professional or perfect..
Humility is the key to the correct attitude when working.
Attitude.. this plays a big role too. It determines how far you can go.
It's true that people true colours show when you step into the working world.
However, what sort of reason.. mainly money and position.
Others? Definitely, it should be building up a wall of defence to protect themselves from all harms and danger.
Hope you choose your ambitions wisely. Don't regret it once u're into it.
Well life could be just tiring if you are working for something that is meaningless.. it wont be if you choose wisely.
Sorry for being blunt here abit.. but it's just something that I have been going through and I just let it out. It's just something for me to remind myself.
I thank God also for Teacher who has pointed out my weakness which has shown quite alot of improvement this posting. I thank her for her constant guidance, and being a friend to me. I thank God for granting me the chance to be her Asst. Leader. It has exposed me quite abit and with I got to learn how my CP teacher feels when she is taking a grp of students. Thank God for her smile that never failed to brighten up my day. Thank God that she really helped us alot in terms of finding for us critical skills to complete.
I thank God for 2 dear friend Kamimah & Tracy for their support and encouragement, with this two ladies I learnt alot from them. Their receptiveness to guidance, their joy in taking care of patients, generous in giving and sincerity with great humility. I treasure the time when we were posted to St Lukes and to Tracy, the times that we went out for meals at IMM haha and the many sweet things you have done for me, and the times spent taking care of patient in ur cubicle or my cubicle haa, I really thank God that you were around. Hope to go out soon with you both to catch up! :)

God is good i cant deny..

I'm going to be YR 2~~~ !!! hahaha my final year..
Need to go back to school for 2 weeks.. I heard we will be having phase test on insulin!
-_-"" Sigh! very fast lei.
Wonder who will be our Class advisor?
and how the class would be?
Excited? ya i want 2 weeks to be over soon so that i can have my holidays! haa
Wont be that lonely sitting in the MRT anymore.. coz 2 person is joining me when i start sch in april.. haha probably.
But i still prefer that I am alone.. haha coz can sleep. lol
Anyways... I'm done with my updating.. Not much of it.
Attended my Naphew 1 yrs old b'day! haha so cute!!!!
Got to catch up with my cousins.
19 is a busy year for me. Don't know why. but anyhow it's good.
God bless all.. :)

Would probably change my skin and post some pics soon! :)

2009-02-21T23:49:00.002+08:00

21st Feb.. Updates

2 more weeks to go.. attachment coming to an end.
Additional 2 more weeks to go.. school ends and Holidays start.
I can't wait !!!
hmmm the ward, Not as bad as I thought it would be.
Working environment. Weird! but still manageable.
Unexpected things does happen once in awhile. :/
I had the opportunity to share about my faith a little to some of my patients that come and go.
Thank God for Tracy, but m going to work alone again for e last 2 weeks grr.
Guess i'm used to working alone.
Learnt new stuff, saw how a Prof drew blood from a patient for bone marrow test last weds.
Way Cool !!!
Nice Prof like him would be willing to teach us although we aren't medical students haa :)
Took more initiative to update my brain on medical stuff.
Interesting to know what's the patient coming in for e.g. Pacemaker, telementary blah. haa.
I'm going to be Year 2 coming April , my last yr in Simei ITE. How fast can it be?
It seems like Yesterday, I thank God for overcoming my fear haa..
Most of all teaching me to love what I don't want and don't like.
I missed my dear friends/sisters! :)
I'm excited because it's going to be different.
Hopefully all will be well by God's grace. :)
Declan's B'day is coming :D
Getting him a b'dae pressey! haa :)

Tt's all!

2009-01-30T21:20:00.008+08:00

Finally, my posting in Ward 51 comes to an end already. It was great being able to go back to the same ward last year and being able to see the familiar faces and standing and serving in the same cubicle. Just some new faces and just different patients altogether. I'm going to missed some of my beloved patient that i took care off. They really made my day at work a joyful want and seeing that they are pleased with my service, my heart smiled. :) Surely there are also some changes with certain things, but i still thank the Lord for granting us a good Clinical Instructor to guide us and helping us to pass our posting :) Looking forward to go St Luke's home this coming week and after that back to NUH cardiac ward. :) Getting more challenging.. I pray that i can get into the elective that i praying for. Which is Onco! After i go back to school in April for my year 2.1 in campus training. It just gets more interesting as i study.. because i dream to be Da Chang Jin haha who can cook and is a very good nurse.. hahaha LOL -.- no la it happens to be a build up passion.. haha :)

Last year 2008 was a really an eventful year for me. Working in Penang place, getting my O level results, making a big U turn from Clementi ITE Business Admin into Nursing Course in ITE Simei which i'm totally not prepared for it. Going for attachments and managing my travelling and sleep time while in campus training. after which God made it possible that i could attend Church camp last year and then having a naphew , Christmas Musical, SS camp, YF camp, My Brother wedding then lastly Chiang Mai trip. it wouldn't be possible by my own strength to go through all this events alone. I thank the Lord for showing his great and mighty works in this each individual events. It did not taught me only spiritual things but mentally as a person too. I guess with my age increasing, many things will become different in terms of how to handling it. I got to enjoy the most of it when i'm 18 alr... SO

Year 2009, I hope to take on a different outlook in life and go towards that direction. i thought i needed to focus more on other area and spent more time to whom i've neglected. Even humans like you looking at my blog now, i'm sure you guys can't really handle your time well. haha well i dun think it's a shame thing to agree.. but i guess we learnt from where we are and where we fall.. We aren't perfect beings.. we still make mistakes and we have our flaws.. but whether other could accept you is another thing. Year 2009 been predicted tt it's not going to be a good year.. where many will be retrenched and all.. .Well if it be God's will let it be, He will see us through and will not give you more than you can bear. I'm sure in other area He will bless you bountifully.. It does not need to be in money form. "Draw nigh to Him.. We are living in the last days." This year It shall SO be my motto. It's really wonderful counting the blessings that God had done for me and preparing the the way for me. He will not go wrong.. This year I guess, it's a need to cope with certain areas that i'm not very happie with.. Definitely there will be good and also bad. But this year i'm not able to go for Church camp :( but it's okie i guess i spent my time in other area that i decided to be focused at. To those whom i've disappoint, really sorry! hope you guys understand.

This year CNY.. I'm so glad to have taken 3 generation photo?!! hahaha ya It's so interesting. I didin't know adults love pictures. hahaha Posting my "BIG" family..

My Paternal side Cousins :)

My Two Ah Ma's! Uncles and Aunties :)

All my Ah Ma, Grand sons and daughters and great grand son :)

Haha so sorrie for coping, but I thank God for being able to go to Rev. Ong's house and Dn Kok Wah's House for visitation this year too :)

Till then.. :)

2009-01-11T22:26:00.003+08:00

Sawadee Kah!

This is my ChiangMai mission trip [22-29 DEC 08'] testimony! Other updates will do it soon! but just to update.. I truely also thank God for giving me good results and truly God will never shortchange anyone who honors Him. May 2009 be a different change for me. Currently, I'm having my last attachment for my Year One. It's a diferent set of challenges altogether.. But I know the Lord is beside me and through the many reminders that, the Lord has already prepare the way before me, so I dont have to be afraid but to trust in Him to guide and lead me. I'm encourage to hear many news of certain patient whom I've nursed before is well and all.. I'm really grateful to God and am encouraged to have heard it. It's two different ward but yet i can still meet the lady whom I encouraged the first ward I went, It really brightens my day. Anyway.. I am back to the second ward in my first posting haha.. abit of difference because now we are not really under any teacher.. but somehow.. now i really wished that there is a teacher. but anyhow, i am enjoying my job although I perspire the whole day kind.. hahaha. alrite thank GOd for everything! Looking forward for CNY!!!!!! hahaha

Firstly, I thank God for His providence and blessing me with help to be able to go for this Chiang Mai Trip. I wasn’t really prepared mentally to go for any trip yet, it seems vague to me or a dream to me when I agreed to go for this mission trip when Jaime and Aunty Amy first approach me. However, I Thank God for moving my heart and that I agreed on: “Yes, I would want to go.” As we all know the condition in Bangkok and Chiang Mai it was almost impossible to go this year, but truly if God wants us to go nothing could stop Him. I thank God for the increasing number of people who were moved to come for this trip and this were church members that I hardly got to talk to them. I thank God for making up this team of 27 people to be able to make it for this trip. Thank God for seeing us through our meetings that involved rehearsals for different team’s skits, practicing of Thai Christmas songs to preparing and discussing about food, guard against malaria etc., and how we got together to pray when we heard the air port in Chiang Mai and Bangkok has closed, we could see God working in us and answering our prayers.

I thank God that He has seen us through a smooth custom check in and out at the airport. Thank God for granting each of us safety and none was unwell. It was already evening, when we reached Crystal Spring where Brother Nat and some Thai Friends came to pick us at the Air Port. We settled down and had our first dinner at Lemon tree house restaurant [The food is "YUM"!]. Some of us who came the second time recognized the familiar faces and for me, I managed to spot some familiar faces because some of them visited Singapore earlier this year or last. Thank God for their warmth welcome when they received us.

Fast forward, I thank God that I am in the West Team who needed to be one of them to accomplish the 6km hike back and forth from Molochi Village to Mae Po Village which is Jack’s Hometown Village. We definitely expect the unexpected from God, we just marvel at how God time and again provided so much help e.g. sending the Molochi Villagers to carry our “Barangs” downhill to Jack’s Village, sending Jack’s Father to receive us and with some of us still carrying our bags were relieve to see that He and his Villagers brought a bull cart with them to lighten our load while the remaining 2km hike. It is almost amazing that because God held the rain, the rivers or streams were manageable to cross by the help of the Thais who go before us to prepare for us to cross safely and there was no sight of leeches although we made so many plans in Singapore e.g. putting on plastic bags, wearing thick socks, bring lighter in case some were bitten by a leech. God was sovereign; Indeed God promised that He will be with us always. Thank God for the hike up and down, God reminded me of the verse “They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary, and they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31.

Following on, God’s sovereignty did not stop there. During the stay at the two villages, I thank God once again how they received us and allowed us to stay over at their house. They gave us their best food, mats, blankets and pillows to make us as comfortable as possible. I really thank the Lord for them who reminded me also that I should give my Best for the Lord and not my second best. I was touched by their sincerity. I thank God that during the celebration nights that we prepared went on very well, many villagers came for the two different nights. The villagers eagerness were really an encouragement to me and I’m sure also to our team. God see us through the night, and was pleasantly surprised to see many were receptive to the Gospel message and wanted to receive Christ. Thank God for softening their hearts! We were all so glad to watch some of Children’s, Youth’s and adults who presented some song items too. I thank God for the opportunity to share part of my salvation testimony to them, it came it useful and I was encouraged to hear Jack’s grandfather’s testimony and was moved to hear that 6 villages have converted into Christianity. I marvel at how God could use him and because of his faith many saw Christ lived in Him. However, I urge Galileans to continue to pray for these two villages because their faith is not so yet strong. However, their simple childlike faith is what that speaks to me most and their willing hearts to give and serve. My two days in two different villages really give me a great insight of living a life in full surrender to God to provide and freely give even we are not able. The joy that I see in their hearts is really different from us. It’s unspeakable joy that only God knows.

After coming back from the two villages, we went to Mae Sariang, it was yet another eye opener for me, we settled in a church for a night and from there, we were informed that we will be performing a song and a mime from the song “So You would come” in front of 600 crowd people in a open air Christmas celebration concert which were organized by a few church in Mae Sariang. I was not prepared, but thank God that night God see us through and kept us. I am so thankful that God allowed Thailand people to have free will to preach the gospel and not being condemned by their own country men. They were all so receptive, even to the point we were encouraged to see that most of them were very receptive and polite to received tracts from us. They don’t reject, but pray that they don’t reject God’s word and its truth.

Coming to a closing, I thank God for sustaining our health thus far until we came back to Crystal spring. God really protect us and was with us all the way on this whole trip and He had worked differently in each of our hearts in this trip. I’m especially touched by how God has been real to me through different circumstances knowingly or unknowingly. There were also two small incidents that God showed that He is truly a all knowing God e.g. sending P’Gade to ask me to put the portable Hi Fi set to my room which I don’t know why must it be our room. So when I got back I found out that our door was not locked and it was left opened, all our lagguages and valuables were inside. I don’t think this is ever coincidental that something like that could happen. Thank God for a lot of great things He had taught me by several uncles who shared their devotions and the rest of the West and East team who got together to share our testimony. Indeed, after this trip it has strengthens our bonds with each other and our spiritual minds were refreshed. It was really God at work and was reminded in Jeremiah 29:11 and Jeremiah 33:3. That God has plan the way for us and when we call out to Him, He will truly show us great and mighty things which we know not.

Thank God for the opportunity to celebrate the light house Church 2nd anniversary! I was delighted to see different races that made up this church and was glad to see Brother Michelle and Sister Ruth and two daughters after a long while since they last came to Singapore. We ended our last few days with shopping around different places and eating their delicious delicacies and food there, and we played their hot air lanterns and fireworks, it was really great experience! God provided abundantly and I really thank God for Dn Kok Wah and Aunty Amy who coordinate this trip with Brother Nat and had made this trip possible all in all by God’s grace. There is so much to thank God for but seriously, hearing the works in Chiang Mai is not enough; the best is you could really experience it yourself. I thank God once again for allowing me to go for this trip and God willing, I really wish to go back again and continue the work in the villages this year. Pra Jao Wei Porn! May God Bless you in Thai! :)

2008-09-13T22:48:00.005+08:00

Chapter closed.

My fellow Attachment colleagues, teacher and Sister of the ward

:) Praise God! Attachment finally over. The feeling of relieved. But the thought of going back to school for one more week is a dread! Grr like is quite redundant to do it after a attachment coz we are all physically tired out. However, it's life. Hmm.. I passed my attachment with a [B] 72%, I'm grateful enough to God already. I think I dun deserve to get a A yet coz I still have lots of area that I need to improve on. Haha.. I'm thankful to God that the NYP students got along with us super well! :) I had a great partner! haha :)

My Lovely partner.. which i Don't believe she is a mother of 2

Haa some of us and the Senior AN & NYP nurses :D

I am grateful that God have sent them to us! :) I thank God for His goodness and mercy towards me, He has given me a easy life in attachment.. Seriously, I thank God that I am working with a group of nice nurses, only for some who would just tear my day down so easily by their words. However, it will not affect me so much, haha who cares!

I thank God for answering my prayers, like the day i needed to complete my * signatures, I totally surrendered it to God's will whether it be anot i deserve to get that sign. I'm sure God's will be done. I still remember that Mon, my lecturer did not come. Woah! that's like a relieved because it was not the day for teacher to assess me. I was mentally not prepared. However on Tues, God was Great! He made me esp alert that day, I thank God that I had a smooth going day. I got my teacher to assess me, but of coz i'm still abit scared la.. My hands starts to turn cold. I thank God that i remembered to be prayerful to each move that I take. Just how marvellous God can be! :) I did it naturally and remembered the mistakes that teacher asked me not to repeat. God omnipresence is always with me. Words just cant say how much He was so good to me.

Anyway, My lecturer expectation of us is really high and hard to meet. Her lines are "Practice makes more practice." I still thank God for her although sometimes I may not totally agree with what she say or think. But i thank God for her straightforwardness. It can build u or kill u. hahaha But anyhow, she is nice when she mean no business. I think she should be abit more friendlier, not in CP only. There are alot of thanksgiving, I count my blessings everyday. And definately, If God willing I become a Sister one day.. I would surely not use my nose to look at my employees or look down on anyone. It doesn't make u higher, it just makes you look bad.

Treat others as how you want others to treat you.. ya i give credit to my Westwood principal. :)

That's about it.. :)

2008-09-01T22:26:00.002+08:00

Drawing nearer...

2 more weeks, Whether i passed.. By God's grace most of it is done. However i hope it is not about the signature but the heart. [be reminded of the rationale behind it] Thank God for the ward and the friendly stuff.. I enjoyed myself altho it's not as busy as the previous one. However the times spent are indeed meaningful, it will be in my memory man!

Combined YF B-P meeting over, God is GREAT.. many came! Praise the Lord! they all enjoyed and God had it all planned altho there were hiccups but our silent chairman is ABLE. Thanks to all who have helped me and contribute to this event! May we be reminded to whom we serve and not be drawn back to not giving our best during our youth.

Bro's apprecaition nite went by just 2 days ago.. Thank God for Brother's who felt loved and appreciated.. May they be motivated and encouraged to serve their best to God and be reminded that the girls in Galilee is always behind to support them. Indeed all our Sirs are capable in every different unique way.. use it wisely to glorify the Greater One. Also, our dear sister in christ who commit and work very hard in the three areas they were assigned to. Thank you! We found our long lost talents and learnt alot ya.. esp those in the kitchen. ;) 'Winks" We had lots and lots of fun!

T'chers Day over, haha rmb past midnight still thinking what tune and lyrics to composed for our dear beloved Elder john and Uncle Daniel.. Thank God I remembered to pray and start and within mins i wrote out one, Thank God. :) but haha i thought that it was Sun sch anniversary that night and that i included the so called "bonus track" our Sunday Sch anthem.. hahaha but it was quite link tho. Thank You guys for making it possible [Senior Class]! :)

Glory be His who has made all this event possible and may He be glorified through it.. :)

Redeemer, Savior , Friend :)

2008-08-19T22:53:00.003+08:00

When everything just "Bang!" shoot like a gun on you.
The blow is just like that, it get worse and sometimes when it hits the part where it can kills..
It is like it have numbed you there.

Not implying anything [just a random post]
I mean it's true.. we all have this times..
But thank God, I have Jesus to heal my wounded area.

2008-08-17T00:02:00.004+08:00

How much can one endure problems?

This week was not a yet great week for me.. like finally right. haha hmm i guess different timing for certain things to happen.. :/ however, Thank God for granting me patience and calmness.. It's not easy when u r stuck with certain situation.. Not tt u want to avoid.. But sometimes, e problem is that sometimes you may not know what will happen if u actually react that way. Don't think otherwise.. I'm glad it's resolved by just acknowledging our mistakes and we both are on gd terms again e next day. :) sometimes, i definately don't like to be put in such situation.. However, if people are the ones not giving the chance to clear things out or even assumption is made.. outcome is: silence and etc. mixed emotion. Well.. time will heal.. not really.. maybe. We dun judge on anything or anyone, but ourselves.

(why? what's happening?) [random, not relevance]

2008-08-16T23:59:00.002+08:00

BE STILL MY SOUL

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to your God to order and provide;
In every change, He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul: your best, your heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul: your God will undertake
To guide the future, as He has the past.
Your hope, your confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul: the waves and winds shall know
His voice Who ruled them while He dwelt below.

Be still, my soul: when dearest friends depart,
And all is darkened in the vale of tears,
Then shalt thou better know His love,
His heart,Who comes to soothe thy sorrow and thy fears.
Be still, my soul: thy Jesus can repay,
From His own fullness all He takes away.

Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord.
When disappointment, grief and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past
All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

2008-08-11T12:22:00.005+08:00

Another week passed..

Quite a relaxing week in the polyclinic.. Learned alot of things from the nurses there.. :) and to be frank.. hospital and polyclinic is so different.. but one thing in common which both are routinal work but the experience is totally different. :) I realised that health is so impt. So Pls rmb to take care of ur health.. and if u dun wan to waste money to see Doctor.. they cant really treat u if u dun start with urself first tho.

Today is holiday for me, haha :) however, tml I will be starting work again in NUH. This time different ward.. but I will try to make my learning there fruitful as much as possible :) God looks after me. :) time passed very fast hor.. almost coming to 2 mths liao.. However , they say 3 mths attachment but it doesnt seems to be 3 mths and sad thing is after attachment no holiday have to go back to sch to study.. SO SIAN!!!.. But hor i 'm sure it would be fun! Coz can hear my classmates experience. :) however.. things maybe different bah. I hope i dun forget my work.. hahaha. But i'm sure timetable would be more relax now.

Now i can use my time to do alot of things.. This month 2 combined events coming up.. hahaha i'm definately excited about it.. :) Do it all for the glory of God! A reminder to me. :) Alright have a blessed day ahead.. :) Take care!

Here's sth ..it's just a thinking dun have to agree

Sometimes people talk to you only when they need u to help.
Sometimes people are just like a food put into the oven when it's hot [on fire to do alot of things], but when it is taken out to cool [ they lost the heat to do anything]
Sometimes people thinks they have the worst problems in the world, but actually it is not the worst.
Some people think others are not genuine, however they don't know they are not also.
Sometimes people are quick to judge, but they didn't realise they are pointing out their weakness too.
Sometimes people are just like Chaemelon, they show their true colours when u meet with problems.
Sometimes people take u for granted, because they think it's you being too kind to offer any help.
Sometimes people just like to be open, but people cant accept and start gossiping others.
Sometimes people are contridicting themselves, and they start confusing others.
Sometimes people just like to be theirselves, but are affected by others comments and gossips.
Many more

I dun mean all and i'm not shooting anyone.. but it makes me reflect on myself too. It's sad how human starts to change when they start growing up.

2008-08-05T20:31:00.002+08:00

ABBA FATHER

Abba Father, let me be Yours and Yours alone.
May my will forever be Ever more Your own.
Never let my heart grow cold, Never let me go.
Abba Father, let me be Yours and Yours alone.

This is my prayer and still always be.
In Christ alone I stand,
Jasmine

2008-08-03T21:38:00.004+08:00

One month has passed...

Going to missed the ward that i'm in.. e AN & SN are quite nice & friendly to start with.. becoz they removed all my worries that they would not be nice but mean. We just got to knoe each other but we have to leave already. However, I thank God for their patience and love towards us in their different ways. :) Quite interesting to celebrate Nurses Day for the first time also. hahaha :) Haha Indeed, God answers my prayer and I thank God for it.. Things like signing my log book.. It was empty 3 weeks before and i was worrying becoz my leacturer complaint that I was busy doing stuff whenever she wants to look for me.. but thank God that the next day as i commit to Him, i tried to make myself available and my teacher came to teach me and initial siganature my log book one go 16 signatures!

It was purely God's grace.. Plus the last week before.. i pray that i would be able to get competency signature.. on Fri i got 9 signatures from the Staff nurse. :) See how God works! Believe and ye shall received, trust and He will make a way. I just pray that God would be gracious on me. I'm pretty scared of my lecturer but she is nice just that to her work is work. I understand. Many more prayers that He answers.. like allowing me to be able to go for Prayer meetings and precepts. Thank God for strength and good health (coz i've been in contact with a few high fever patients but I'm still well!) In Addition, I thank God for those who have been keeping me in prayer e.g. ytd i ask them to pray for my spine and knee due to long standing and bad body mechanics haha after praying God ease the pain and i could do gardening! :) But continue to pray for my back and knee, plus I will be graded by my lecturer soon. I hope she would be gracious in her grading and God will for me to get whatever He wants me to get. Thank God for zero MC's! :D this one cannot be taken for granted. Alot more.. Like Manageable patients (they are nice ppl tt i've met, hope they get well soon!) and getting to understand different nurses job, no wonder they say there is a lack of nurses it's true! :/ I do not doubt that my God is Real!

Tml.. i'm going to Chua Chu kang Polyclinic for my attachment for one week. Hmm.. Hope it's going to be manageable.. :/ pray tt i will be able to figure out how to go there. haha dun wan to lose my way. So interesting.. after that on 12 Aug will be going back to NUH but to another ward for final attachment, which would not be easy but well.. I believe God will see me thru..Now Combined YF B-P Meeting is coming up soon..I'm part of the committee and planning for games and etc haha fun!.. If any of u interested.. It's located at Zion (Serangoon) Bp Church.. :) It's $5 for dinner.. timing is 1-8pm.. Theme: Whom Do we serve? If you are interested u can tag me or email me or msn me at jalind573@hotmail.com :)

haha.. Oh ya and thank God that i would be able to go for Mission Trip to Chiangmai this Dec :) God has been great! Altho there are ups and down.. But I thank God that i still can rejoice.. becoz I noe He hears and cares! There are so much to thank God for...So never doubt God's ability. Wait patiently on the Lord.. :) That's all! God is Jehovah Jireh, my provider! Shalom!

2008-07-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

:0)

One week have passed, i went for my attachment. It was a different experience and i guess at certain point of our lives we definately have to change a new environment to learn new things and meet new ppl. For me, i thank God for the opportunity to go for this attachment, carrying with me so little confidence because I know that I might not meet some patients needs. However, with God in control, I thank God that each day my day seems meaningful, interesting and I got help when needed. Indeed, it was not as scarry as what some have mentioned, probably is yet to come but at least it's not on the first day. For 3 mths, everyday is like a challenge to me e.g. "the EN ask me to challenge myself to take parameters within 30 mins for 8 patients" and whether anot i could survive in nursing. I hope to pass and i'm not expecting any high grades coz i noe my capabilities. However, what I expect myself of this 3 mths is to be a need to the patients and give my best to them just like how I give my best to Jesus. It's tiring, but thank God for strength! :) Thank God for some of the ENs and ANs tat made my day glad with their warmth greetings and some of them who share with me. I agree, if you have a interest for this job, it will not be stressful. :) I live with this as my mission statement now. haha.. In Addition, i missed my classmates!

Today, i went back to my Sec Sch for Homecoming, not much of my class turned up, I didn't felt like going too. Coz i'm tired! haha i need my beauty sleep! Met up with Pat angd go tgt. Finally, we got back our testimonial and O lvl cert! If not for the cert, i think i probably wouldn't have gone. However, it was also good to meet up with some teachers, most of them left. oh well, expected. Ate free lunch [not bad] haha and then chit chat with some teachers. haha they didn't expect me to be in nursing. haha maybe to them i don't look like as if i would want to be a nurse. Met some old classmates, everyone looks different teacher couldn't regconised us. Watch some performances after which I went off with Pat to our separate ways. I headed to YF for tracting! :)

That's all! Take care ppl!

2008-06-25T00:13:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since i blog. :) alrite.. lets start with what am i doing now.. Hmm.. i'm doing nursing course in ITE Simei. It took me alot of obstacles, scoldings and irritated by their system to get into nursing by God's grace! I actually wasn't offered a space because there isn't any, but well.. i think they made some arrangement and squeeze me into nursing instead of paramedic because they thought that i am still not ready for it [ it's true] it didn't came across my mind although it is a higher nitec course. If not i would had been in clementi ITE doing Business Admin..I don't mind actually.. altho there isn't any passion in it.

However, God knows where he wants me best and also what I want to do. So I'm thankful for that, and He has been real to me. After the next day of sch reopen, I went to simei to report for sch and started there and then.. :) People were different and yes there are difference btw the east and the west people.. but well we still can click with each other well. :) I've enjoyed my 7 weeks in school with them esp the ones i'm closer too, and i didn't expect sometimes class could be so relaxing.. haa but to think we are not in Sec sch anymore we have to be responsible for ourselves. Thank God for people who had prayed for me :) I really thank God that i 've no need to fear of Simei ITE now.. haa actually compare to other ITE.. i thought God was good. Because of it's environment [people]. i am adapting well.. :)

Haha.. i am glad to have finished my first term, it's gd.. for next three mths i dun need to travel to simei.. coz i'm having attachment! :) However..... I won't get to see familiar friends! Sigh! plus I am going to deal with real Patients not the dummies back in my sch! :/ hmm but i will depend on God strength to see me through everyday. Going to miss some of my friends.. anyhow.. now i'm super enjoying my holidays.. Just got back from church camp same place Genting Awana :)

This year church camp theme is " Avoiding a wasted life" it was meaningful tripped up to Genting .. this year rooming with Gwyneth & Shelia :).. Plus some of us offered to look after a mandrine seniors up and down of Genting. :) I must say they had fun! and thank God for the opportunity to know them better.. Haa truely some were as hip as us! :) I thank God for me partnering with this lady, thank God that i can give her my listening ear to hear her problems.. Thank God she is hokkien! :)

The msg touched my heart as to what Pastor Bob has used many examples and stories to remind us of the importance of our salvation and for us to spread this msg to others as it link back to our theme, how timely it was. Plus the testimonies by 4 of the uncles and aunties were also a timely reminder and an encouragement to us. :) Glad to have gone to this camp. Plus i like what Pastor and Aunty Jenny illustrate to us.. And altar and a waste paper basket , things that we do which are meaningful and wasting our time. and the cup which once filled with pure water [ our first love] and then how we gone astray all our problems and burdens. Not trusting God [ represent by cup of tea] and a bottle[ the word of God] will bring us back if we let it overflow and take control.

Is all on the altar our sacrifice laid?
Your heart does the spirit control,
you can only be blessed and have peace and sweet rest,
when you yield Him your body and soul.

I think this year families are drawn more together :) Praise God for that! anyway.. yup this are some that impacted me :) alrite now... pray that God will let me spend my two more weeks of holidays meaningfully!

Wasted years, Wasted years.
O how foolish, as you walk on in darkness alone.
Turn around, turn around
God is calling, His calling you from a life of wasted years.

2008-04-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

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2008-04-07T23:00:00.002+08:00

Don't let someone be the priorities in your life when you are just an option to theirs.

How true.

2008-04-01T23:16:00.002+08:00

I'm back from m'sia,well didn't really rest much becoz of the terrible jammed and we were stuck 1 an a half hour just to go Tuas second link and when i came back from johor , we were stucked for almost 2 hrs. Plus all the irritating pauses and all, didn't get much of rest plus i need to go work after i go home & change. But Well i'm glad God sustained me and my mum to go there safely and returned safely. :)

In M'sia, I didn't get to do or visit much, coz it's only 3 days but at least this 3 days within it i got to renew my relationship with God . Well, there is just too much to bear before i go to M'sia. But as i slowly name them one by one and submit it to God, the burdens just rolled away as He promised. and yup, how we often are tempted to depend on our own strength and not depend on God. M'sia life is just perfect for someone like me; slow. haa [random] hmm.. well, the problem is still there, but i'm just taking one step at a time with God being my guide. This year is a very different year which needs alot of adaptability to be invovled but well with God by my side, i will ba able to overcome it :)

After much consideration and much rejection, I took a long route to clearly decipher where and what i want to do in life, But now it's not to depend or think by my circumstance but to trust God that He will put me into where He wants me to be in. I'm glad he closed certain places, becasue he knows that there is not where my interests lies nor I'm prepared. Well, thank God that he speak to me through many ppl. But wherever i may be place, there will be my mission field and also to work hard :)

Haa, i had so much fun even also when i came back from M'sia :) Working.. haa [no life] but Fun!, Church, YF oh well, didn't get to fly kite but well it's God's will at least he only allowed the sky to rain after we finish our Singspiration & short exhortation by Kevin. We had the Fun we missed tho :) Went out with Pat and created a [ Orchard & Raffles] story-_-"" haa . Well.. back to serious stuff, have to prepare lots of things. i probly update soon. :)

2008-03-19T23:32:00.003+08:00

Hey.. :)

It's been a enjoyable week, I must say. :)

Will be AWAY---> 20 March-24 March. it's only 4 days, but i will surely missed out alot! update to me! :D i will enjoy M'sia also! hee

Take Care people! :)

2008-03-06T16:32:00.004+08:00

:)

back updating again!.. Ytd i enjoyed myself again. Hmm but firstly, I Thank God that my medical checkup is over, and everything is negative. Which is a good thing, Haa. :) Good report!

Alrite, haa i said i'm going to continue updating. hmm, to please my mum i had no choice to cut my hair.. haa but i like my New Look!!! and Pat went with me and she got her hair cut too and in 2 spearate days she got 2 diff look la but hee i only cut my hair short. I quite like it. And it was a risk to let a man cut my hair [Only me and Pat noe Y]. haa but thank God my money is not paid for sth bad but good :) but my mum still complain, coz she commented that the guy is a bad hairdresser! haa but well cout already so no choice :D + Ytd i went out with Pat, Jin li & cindy to town area. Oh man Raining the whole day"COLD"..But we still enjoyed shopping and eating. Haa, I bought so many cheap stuff.. It's really cheap and nice can! haa but most importantly the time we spent were precious, coz they don't get to spend much time with me haa rite? After i headed to Prayer Meeting, it was always nice to hear how God has blessed each individually in His own time and also to give thanks to God and to meet each one needs through prayer! Philippians 4:6 and we celebrated William Birthday :) It's Nice to learn Happy Birthday in Tamil. haa he oso ask us to sing in Chinese too so that he could put that as his ringtone. Haa x)

Hmm.. Alrite I got to work soon! update again. Take Care :)

2008-03-04T23:47:00.004+08:00

Hello0!Something new about Today! It was yet another working day but with a difference because I went Sakae buffet with my colleagues after work, haha and my manager treated us! I ate alot man! nearly vomitted. :) but i definitely had an enjoyable fellowship with them. It nice to have starting to build friendship with them somehow. After that, i watched JUNO with another grp of colleauges. Haa.. Nice show indeed! kinda meaningful.

Anw, i will be going to m'sia on the 20-24 March. Glad i made this seemingly hard decision. It's been a long time since i go to M'sia to visit my relatives. So, i better go since i've got a long break and i can spent time with my Mummy too.. :D it's also a good time to be away to clear my mind and come back afresh,to make right with God and to see God's clear direction prayerfully.But it's only four days :) I will be celebrating the ressurection of our Lord in M'sia! haa.

Hmm...alrite man! will update more tml.:) and the last thing, Ppl.. don't be too caught up with things or problems in this world, rmb to stay close to God and let Him lead you! Suddenly, it also feels that the coming of the Lord is nearer & nearer each day as you watch the news reporting it's happening around the world including Singapore.

2008-02-29T00:23:00.005+08:00

There are many first!

On Tues.. sent off Jonathan to the airport.. "phew" thank God we made it. We nearly did not make it. HAa and believe it anot i'm quite excited going to the air port. x) coz it's my First time! I always watched on the TV but nv get to experience it myself. Haa and ytd was in the cab and rushing to the air port really felt like action pack show. Sua Ku! haa nvm. :P Parting scene was unbearable too and ya u noe.

Today went out with Gwyn & her Thai friend to Vivo to shop & walk. :) Enjoyable, but i was a little to tired from work. Get to know a little more about North East Line. I always tht it has a driver [like normal MRT] but No.. haa and got to the very front and get to see the railway track from the transparent window. :) and we had fun running around taking pics at the rooftop etc. and most importantly to get to know this Thai Friend! :)

Ahh.. tml working FULL day! haa oh ya! i'm so proud of myself! I was called back to do Blood Test today! and it was my first time lah.. altho i was a little scared and tht it would be painful haa but no feeling so i just glimsp and saw my blood being draw out like alot lah! haa but i didn't faint. :P Thanks to dear Pat who have accompanied me. :D Anyway.. Also my first time doing X-Ray the other day. So co0l! haa and the person taught me alittle about how to see blood pressure from the machine. :)

Oh Well.. much to thank God for all this experiences! :) More to come i hope! Alrite.. Take care!